My world , My reality

2006-11-28T12:36:00.000+08:00

Yes ! i'm finally back home in Sunny Singapore .. i L-O-V-E Singapore .. hahaha i honestly think that goin overseas has changed me alot.. it was pure bootcamp for me back in aussie with nights i had to skip dinner cuz they were serving beef or having little slp cuz my neighbours were making a hell lot of noise the night before.. when i came back to singapore i felt soo appreciative of my moms home cooked food and the quiteness of my house. Weird but true..

O did i mention ? i am moving house.. yup .. so its packing packing and more packing for me .. just looking at the amt of junk i have in my rm .. its giving me a headache.. haha .. i knw i'm gona miss my present hs .. after 18yrs of living in this hs its time to say goodbye.. sigh..

-i have my difficulties pls understand .. i wont blame u if u hate me.. but i knw its for the better in the long run .. trust me on this ..

2006-11-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

Gwad.. someone pls slap me .. i totally screwed up my paper today.. studied like soo dam hard for it and jus couldnt do the god dam paper.. pardon me for all the swearing.. i jus need to let it all out.. gosh sometimes i wonder wads the point in all this hard work when at the end of the day i don get results.. ARGH .. im feeling fustrated.. i shouldnt have spent all my days mugging for this stupid paper if i knew the results would be this .. Wad the hell have i been doing these pass few days.. my first paper in ANU and yes i gota screw it up big time ! Damm ! Don even knw if i'm elligible to sit for supp.. feel like tearing up all my accts papers.. and burn it in the JCR's fire place (my college's fireplace)..

Yea i knw theres no point brooding over it and all .. i will and i must get my priorities right now and prepare for my next exam which is another killer.. yes i'm referring to Finance.. I must not screw up this paper again.. Wish me luck !

-Need to stay focus for this period of time .. would appreciate it if i could study in peace .

2006-10-31T23:27:00.000+08:00

I'm dreaming of home.. yes i am that desperate.. how i wished i could hop on a plane right now that will take me back to s'pore.. its THAT bad.. the food here is jus as bad .. but i've got a great news to share !! I've got my apartment !! FINALLY !! hahaa .. i am soo excited to move in .. the thought of never having to eat another meal at john's puts an instant smile on my face ! i'm serious !! i never knew chinese food could taste soo bad till i lived at johns.. sometimes i wonder where they hire the cooks from .. But i know i'll miss my little rm here at johns.. though small but i've grown fond of it :) ..

Anyways.. I'll be home in 18 days time !!! hahaha .. i cant waite !! beeuutttiiiffuull singapore here i come !! As for now .. i need to focus .. get it over and done with .. yea ! exams starting in 3 days .. its been a long time since i've sat for such a long paper.. 3hrs !! sheesh, the last time i remembered i had a 3hrs paper was back in sec schl .. i hope i don get leg cramps..

Alrightz its 2.45 am now.. and i gota slp.. its gona be a long day tomorrow .. Nitez peeps..:)

-i know how everyone is stressed out and all.. i am too.. so would u pls give me some peace and quiet.. thats all i'm asking for .. its not much.

2006-10-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

Finally !! I'M FREE FROM ASSIGNMENTS.. YIPPEE !!
i've got approximately 1 1/2 weeks till exams and 3 weeks till i'm back in sunny s'pore.. cant waite !! :)
Been slping realli little the last few weeks jus to clear up all my assignments.. tiring .. brain draining .. exhausted .. fatigue .. sleepy..

Anyways.. Wish me luck for my upcoming exam.. Gona turn in now.. Gd nite peeps.. :)

-nows not the time .. not right now.. let me breathe..

2006-10-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

TIRED...FATIGUE ...

i realli hope i don burn out b4 the exams.. been slping very little the pass few days.. rushing rushing all my assignments.

Finally had a good and long girl chat with den.. very clear of my direction now..i'm not gona bother abt all the silly gossips and exchange of glances..I jus need to be patient .. 4 more weeks !! just 4 more weeks !!

It realli tough to keep sane here .. its realli realli tough .. sigh .. i need to realise whatever i'm feeling inside but i cant find anyway to do that .. and at the end of the day all i can do is keep it in.

I need a breather badly.. away from all of these.. in my own familiar comfort zone ..

4 more weeks and i'm counting down !!

- I don wan to have to run and hide.. but sometimes its hard with the way ur acting, cant we forget abt all these and go back to the starting line ?

2006-09-21T11:15:00.000+08:00

Drained, tired, exhausted, aimless... So much has happened over the pass 3mnths, but yet i still feel back at square one. I thought i knew but i dont, i thought i learnt but its still not enough, i thought i had it all worked out but nothing is going right ..
Caught in a fix that i'm unable to get out off. I feel deceived..

I just want to get away from all of these, wake up from this never ending dream and close this particular chapter of my live. A chapter with pages full of creases...

I came here with intentions of looking for awhole new experience but ended up searching to fill that void within myself. How senseless this seems..how stupid this looks..

Who can i talk to ? Who can i lean on ? Who can i TRUST ? Tell me ..
I'm not greedy .. 1 just 1 will be enough .. but WHO ?
Just as i thought i found my bouy in the sea it turns out to be nothing more then just a weightless object and i find myself struggling to keep afloat once again..

I AM WORN OUT ...

2006-08-10T08:24:00.000+08:00

Yup.. I'm here in CANBERRA now.. Its still winter over here so its like 6 degrees everyday.. schls started for me and i've been trying to adapt to uni life as best as i can .. lotsa things to blog but i dono where to start.. One things for sure.. i've made some realli nice friends.. sinagporeans and non singaporeans.. but u knw i'll always love u girls (u knw who i'm talking abt) i promise !! hahaha ..

Been sick recently.. had a fever and sore throat right after i came back from my ski trip .. sheesh.. the weather was cold and hot at the same time .. the sun was blazing hot !! but the ice made the place realli cold .. u get wad i mean .. anyways skiing was fantastically fun !! crashed into soo many pple hahah .. alrighty its 10.24 now and i've gotta make my way to class now will blogg another time .

P.S Wana say a HAPPY HAPPY Birthday to my 2 cousins Clara and Sam.. Hope u guys had a wonderful birthday celebration !! :)

2006-07-08T14:54:00.000+08:00

OK people .. this is it ! i'm leaving in abt 4hrs time .. heading to Sydney to visit my cousin before i head down to Canberra.. Did some last min packing yesterday .. and yes i'm done .. finally !!

I'm still considering if i shld bring some ginseng tea there .. cuz if i do i'll have to declare and i don wan to cuz they will make me open up my luggage .. and it took 3 people to close my luggage today.. haha .. yes its highly over weight .. i'll jus have to go there and beg the counter staff ..

Alright .. i think i shld go do some last min checks b4 i forget to bring anything impt .. U guys tc yea .. and thx alot of taking time off from work or schl or etc.. to meet up with me b4 i leave.. luv u guys ..

P.s my present handphone no. will not be in use as i'll be going there to buy a simcard. I'll let u all knw my updated contact details as soon as i settle down there yea :) BYeee !!

2006-06-26T10:11:00.000+08:00

i have been utterly too lazy to blogg.. been enjoying my holidays.. eating lots, slping lots, shopping lots, watching lots of tv haha.. basically enjoying my life right now.. sometimes it feels good to wake up in the morning and knw that you don have to get out of bed for anyone or any particular reason and can snuggle back under the covers again till .. i'm happy to get up. hahaha .. yes .. life is gd ..

Well I realli shld be enjoying myself to the fullest right now cuz in 11 days time, i'll be in a cold and miserable state, far far away from home .. haa.. ok i shant think of it that way.. i shld be positive ! yea ..

My packings coming along alright .. theres soo much i wana bring but so little space for it .. arghh ! and my dad made a mistake !! he bought the adult tic instead of the student tic for me so its 10kg less for me :( jus imagine how much more i can bring with that extra 10kg !! help !! i need the 10kg !!!!!!!!!

Alrighty i gtg now.. will be busy for the rest of the week. Doing some final packing, meeting up with friends etc.. and enjoying my last feel days here :) cya all !

2006-05-10T14:33:00.000+08:00

Yup.. i've finally made up my mind.. i'm goin to ANU !! Its settled .. kinda .. paid for the schl fees but not accomodation yet.. just to secure a place in the hostel .. all students need to go thru a half an hr interview ! can u believe it .. Madness i say !! jus to sleep in that building .. students need to go thru an interview ??!! Sheesh.. but the gd news is that internationl students do not need to go thru that silly interview .. its a first come first serve basis for international students. And being a 'kiasu' singaporean as i am .. i DHL 2 testimonals across to the dean of the collage .. hehe .. i realli hope i get a rm in that (JOHN 23rd) building .. cuz the hostel that i applied for has the largest rm as compared to the other hostel rms on campus.

Been busy lately.. preparing for my uni .. everyday i come up wiith something new that i think i need to bring over there .. i'm seriously thinking of how i'm gona bring my rice cooker over there. i don think its a very gd idea to hand carry a rice cooker rite ?

I gota go for now.. will update u guys again .. cya :)

2006-04-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

This song is realli good. easy listening ..
check it out yea ..

Put Your Records On

Three little birds, sat on my window
And they told me I don't need to worry
Summer came like cinnamon.. So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete

Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
And nothing seems to change, and it all will stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo hairdo

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

Just more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer.. Do what you want to

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down

Oh, You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

Corinne Bailey Rae

2006-04-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

I've got good news to share .. got my offers from my aussie Unis !! Yeaa... After such a long waite .. finally !!
ok .. so i got offers from uni of new south wales, western australia, aust national uni and uni of sydney ..and onli dear ANU has offered me advance standing . The rest were all so disappointing.. sigh.. anyway, so now that i've got the offers its time to go do some much needed thinking as to where i should go. :) Got any opinions abt it ? pls let me knw yea..

2006-04-09T13:23:00.000+08:00

I've been endlessly waiting for the uni's that i've applied for to give me an answer and its down right FUSTRATING ... to waite and waite and waite.. i feel lost and unsure of wad my future will be .. i waite for the postman every single day to come .. hoping he will bring me some news of my unis..it has become sorta a habit of mine now to collect the mails directly from the postman that he can even remember my face already !! sheesh...

Other then waiting and doing more waiting .. i've been spending much time too at my couins hs.. her doggy jus had an operation .. poor fellow..

Spoke to another couins of mine abt studying overseas the other day and it sounds realli exciting to see the world, make new friends and learn all sorts of new things.. and a part of me is realli yearning to do just that but theres another part of me to thats stopping me .. its a tough decision and my parents arnt making it any better for me .. trust me ..

Rite, my dads screaming for me now.. gtg ..

2006-03-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

Yes.. i've finally graduated .. Schools out.. i'm free..
Been busy applying for unis lately and yea.. still trying to find a job.. its just so diff to find a right one.

Will keep u guys updated abt my uni application outcome and my job hunting as well..

Going to bed now.. Good night pple..

2006-02-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

I'm so hooked on this song rite now..

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be allright
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

-Michael Buble

2006-02-06T19:04:00.000+08:00

Projects are Finally over !! Time to ctach up on my slp .. i have terrible eye bags.. i doubt all the creams and mask in the world wont be able to help.. haha

My cousin wen back to Sydney yesterday.. gave her a farewell breakfast at chinatown.. realli hope to go to Sydney and visit her after my exams.. :) so i'm lookin ard for good air fairs rite now.. if u guys see any gd deals let me knw ya !

Got my results for my term paper back .. didnt do as well as i expected.. :( need to hear some words of encouragement rite now.. (where are u girls ? - angeline , erica and den ?? ) i feel lousy .. i need to vent my fustration .. ARGGHH don knw that the lect is so strict he realli doesnt seem like one to me.. Deceived yes i knw.. well i hope the rest of my grds get better .. *cross my fingers*

Going to ritz on wed for lunch.. finally i'll get to see what the tourism schl at sentosa is like .. Post celebration with gp members on thurs at the Balcony.. :) Cant waite..

2006-01-17T15:30:00.000+08:00

Its 3.30pm shld be in the LT rite now listening to some talk .. but i chose to skip it.. got soo much work to do .. i don think many pple will be goin either.. Ah lim and Ah lee is cramping us with too much of work !! ARGHH ...

Caught the flu bug ... my nose is like a running tap now.. and its soo ichy too !! My brother has gone back to UK so has my cousin, to US.. awfully quiet ard.. glad i spent quite abit of time with both of them when they were here.

Been spending my evenings at my cousin's new house.. watching all her korean VCDs.. gosh .. i hate to say this but i'm jus sooo hooked to it !! ahhaa..

My aunty got me a fondue set yesterday ! soo super duper happy.. been wishing for one for like ages (check out the pics)

Alrite i gotta get back to doing my project work, theres just aaallllooottt to do.. o well.. peeps jus hang in there it jus abt a week more .. we can all do it ! :)

2006-01-04T14:21:00.000+08:00

Came back from a good break .. Had fun, ate so much .. :)
i wana franchise HANG HEUNG !! hahaha .. (thats the most popular brand of Lao Po Bing in HK)

Back to schl for me .. lottsa things to do once again.. don think i'll have much time to blog.. but i'll try my best ..

Lots to say but cant realli think rite now.. cuz my mind is filled with "wad to write for my HTsemi paper brief" Going for consultation later.. hope my lect approves of it.

Alrity will blog sometime again .. BYe for now..

2005-12-24T15:48:00.000+08:00

Went schl for CPM meeting yesterday .. managed to kinda briefly write out the interim report with my gp mates .. Met my mom at parkway and did some last min christmas shopping .. gota exchange gifts with my cousins tonight. Got home at 5 plus and was deciding if i should meet my sec shcl mates for dinner cuz i was feeling super shagged.. but i went anyway cuz i had to pass my babes their christmas present.. got a realli nice gift from maht and candy.. u guys are so sweet thx.. 7 of us turned up for the mini gathering and we ate at marche.. it was loads of fun catching up with the old times.. hahaha .. Walked ard orchard.. it was soo packed with pple everywhere !! Took lotsa pics and then finally sat down for dirnks at coffee bean outside Paragon.. Shared a cab home with Zi and Candy. Had a fantastic evening ! :)

2005-12-18T16:49:00.000+08:00

I had a fantastic birthday celebration yesterday ! Wana thank all my couins and my babes.. You guys gave me a wonderful day to remember..

Met my cousins at orchard in the afternoon.. wanted to watch chicken little or pride and prejudice but there wasnt any good seats available.. so we decided to have lunch at take instead.. We had pepper lunch .. The salmon is super nice.. better then the chicken .. Walked ard orchard area.. it was flooding with people .. and at Hereen i met a ex pan pac colleague .. (Rene.. and yes as usual he was drinking himself silly) hahah.. Went kino cuz my cousin wanted to buy this jap magazine.. Rushed home after that to get ready for dinner..
My babes came at 7 to pick me up .. we went for dinner at Spizza club street .. The food was good.. hehe they all liked the pizza i ordered. Its called Quinta by the way(so remember to called that wen ur there !) Its actually a pizza with a raw egg on top of it and some truffles.. the egg cooks by itself cuz the pizza base is hot .. Yummy...
Erica made it for the dinner .. was realli glad.. after dinner they surprised me with a birthday cake.. realli sweet of them .. Erica left with Normand after that cuz she had another b-day to go.. She drove haha poor Normand he looked realli scared .. we wanted to go for drinks .. so we headed down to Indo-chine at boat quay but that place was packed with pple and they were having this fashion show thingy there so we decided to go to the one at clark quey .. Met Denise's friend half way thru .. Realli nice of him to show us the way there .. we wanted to go inside the club but was stopped by the bouncer cuz Denise's sister was underaged .. Th bouncer saw her and asked her "girl how old are u?" and she replied in a realli girlie voice "i'm 12" hahahaha .. it was terribly funniee.. so we decided to sit outside instead.. Ordered some drinks and we took turns to go inside the club to have a look .. it was freaking small .. everyone was crowding ard and no one was dancing .. except for some SPGs..
Denise's parents came and fetched her sister home.. then we decided to go clubbing .. Initially we wanted to join Denise's friend to this club called 'Home club' cuz he had a pardy to attend there but wen we reached there, they said admission fee is $12 but u get a drink free.. Didnt want to spent that monay cuz after all we already had drinks at Indo-chine.. So we walked back to clark quey and wanted to check out Ministry of Sound.. OMGawd .. sooo many people .. totally like no need money .. haha threre was a long long queue even at 1.30am !
In the end we ended up at Attica .. the bouncer was realli nice.. let us in for free. Th club was realli small .. lotsa caucasians, indians and SPGs.. And they were selling Vodka for $10 ! can u imagine !! The dance flr was sooo freaking small.. and the place was soo dark.. didnt like it at all.. music wise was alrite, not fantastic .. was there till like 3 am some idiot threw or fropped his beer bottle on the floor and it hit my last toe ! I was in pain man .. Hobbled out of teh club .. hahahah and left after that .. Slept at close to 5am.. Yawnzzz...

Woke up at 8 this morning to have Dim Sum Breakfast with my family at Yam Cha .. Was too sleepy to realise wad i was stuffing into my mouth .. Came back home cuz my mom bought a b-day cake for me to cut :P Going for a swim later on with my cousins :)

2005-12-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to myself ! haha.. I am 20 already.. had a great dinner with Charlene and Meiyin at Suntac.. we had steamboat.. and cuz we took the spicy soup.. all of us were tearing half way thru the meal.. haa.. Walked ard suntac and went to the mango sale.. it was herrible.. sooo many pple .. like no need money .. haha.. Went to hush hush and i bought a blouse. Charlene bought a bag and a cap.. they are having a 50% !!
These two girls gave me such a sweet birthday gift. i got an esprit vchr, a hairclip, a eyeshadow and a realli pretty diary. Thx soo much girls ! :P

Got home and my brother gave me his gift .. its a perfume and some scented body wash from this brand 'ghost'. Apparently, he bought it from Selfridges .. http://www.escentual.co.uk/ghost/deep_night/deepnight02.html

Going for a lunch and movie tomorrow with my cousins .. havent seen my cousin clara for a realli long time ready.. she came back from sydney last night.. Will be goin for dinner with my babes after that :)

AAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa cant believe i'm 20 already !!!!

2005-12-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

So many things have been happening to me lately .. I think i jus feel kinda stressed out with the workload. Essays to hand in, CDS projects to do (and worse part is .. i dont even know anyone from that CDS), 2 Major FYP projects too. Maybe its because i havent been in touch with my books for the last 6 mnths that so much so that i feel so lost now. I dono.. realli dono.. sigh.

I'm looking forward to the short trip to HK with my family.. take my mind off all these projects. Final year is no breeze for me.

Birthday is tomorrow.. but some how or rather i'm not realli looking forward to it.. no offence girls.. i realli appreciate ur planning but its jus me .. turning 20 is scary.. i hate to think that i'll be 21 in chinese context. The older u get.. the more worries u have..thats wad my moms friend once told me.. and i know know wad she means now..

Been having lots of pple asking me this qn lately "o ah ger ah.. wad u wan to do after u graduate ar ? work ? study ?"
And i always stare at them blankly cuz i realli dono wad to say. Should i work or should i study ? If i work .. which industry ? if i study .. which course ? i myself have no answers to that.

This is gona sound abit cliche but yeah "i'll let nature take its course."

Alright back to editting my essay ..

2005-12-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps.. ok my blog has come alive again.. Thx soo much Saed !

Updates:
My attachment has ended at Pan Pacific and i'm Back in schl! :) I just realise how much i missed being in schl .. i'm not joking.. working life is terrible.
Just came back from Dubai not long ago.. with the schl and it was surprisingly fun ! Though it wasnt suppose to be a leisure trip but who cares .. everyone played real hard and it was definately a good break away from work for me.

Been bugged down with lotsa work.. Projects Projects and many more Projects.. ARGHH.. The letter P is scary..

Anyway.. I'm looking forward to the upcoming 2 week holiday.

Tis the season to be jolly.. falalalalaaa lala lalaa ..

2005-09-10T10:53:00.000+08:00

Sales and Marketing !!! Thats where i'm attached to right now.. and i tell u its jus pure Heaven !! I just sit in the office everyday and listen to the sales manager talk talk talk and best of all i get like 2 hours of lunch break everyday! hahaa.. How i wished i could stay at Sales and Marketing and never have to go back to that bloody rest!

Followed the sales manager to a sales call the other day to deliver mooncakes. It was a whole new experience for me.. and the sales manager was so nice to introduce me as her colleague and not a 'trainee' which of course alot of other sales managers do.

Yesterday, i had the opportunity to follw my director of catering sales to the Jap Ambassordor's house for a private function. Gosh his house is HUGE !! and i mean HUGE !! He has a special room just for entertaining guest with tatami mats and the kind of lowered seats u can find in higher classed jap rests. And the best part of it is that theres a pretty japanese garden right in the middle of the house !! fantastic !!

Was at the executive office yesterday..yup with the General manager and assistant GM.. but they wernt very friendly . Sales and marketing has been like a realli long and nice break for me ..

Goin back to that bldy cafe on mon.. sigh.. wish me luck guys !

2005-07-31T10:41:00.000+08:00

Transferred to a new department this week. The coffee hs. Work there is jus HORRIBLE !!! all the supervisors there are just lazy and incompetent. 90% of the work there is done by the associates. We slog and work like shit and all they do jus stand in front of the restaurant to 'welcome' the guest and shout at us to do this and do that. This whole week they made me pour coffee tea, serve and clear plates. My arms and legs are super super aching and they are always shouting at us to work faster . I'm even worse off then a labourer and i basically hate it there !!!!!! I cant stand it !! its too physical for me .. i cant stand to think i still have like 2 months more there. AARGGHHH !!!

This whole week has been a very hectic one for me cuz mt grandma passed away on wed. Tue midnight to be exect. But don worry .. i'm fine! Just sad i did not manage to see her for the last time.
Anyway on wed morn i didnt report for work cuz i had to help prepare for the wake and the day before i stayed at the hospital till 4am. I called to say i could not make it cuz my grandma jus passed away and guess wad the manager asked me ? "WAD TIME " she had the cheek to ask me wad time my grandma passed away. I do not wish to further comment on that cuz i think u all know how i felt. ^%$#$&*U^%$##^&...

Did i mention i do not have good vibes for the manager ? .. yeah shes fraking scary .. actually i don realli know if my maager is a he or a she. u get my drift huh.

Pls people pray for me .. i hope i can survive ther for another 2 more mnths!!

2005-07-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

I'm soooooo OVERWORKED !!!!! I feel shagged !! i need a long long long BREAK !!my face looks terrible .. like rotting vege.. i feel miserable ! The office looks so sad.. they should do something abt the seating arrangement and the feng shui. I feel terribly stuffy there..o well i onli have like a week left.. goin to another dept next.. an even worse dept .. summer hs .. the bloody coffee hs and i'm gona be there for 11 weeks!! ARRGGHHH !!!

I just cant waite to go back to school !

2005-06-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

I do apologise for not updating my blog frequently , problem is that work has taken so much of my time .. i end up soo bloody tired at the end of the day and all i wan to do jus jump into bed to get some sleep..Works been the same , nothing unusual. Everyday is work, eat, sleep and back to work..

Had quite an experience recently, thats prolly the onli "happening" thing that has happened so far..btw me and the aussie guy in my reservations dept but things didnt turn out the way it was suppose to be. But we're still friends.. Firgured out that prolly god wans me to meet some villians before i finally find my prince at the end of the road.. ahhaha ..

My brother's back from England.. he'll be here for the next 3 mnths .. think i'm gona miss the peace and quietness when he wasnt ard.. haha..

Jus came home from dinner.. listening to the latest cd i bought "Save in a crazy World by Corrine May". The cd's brilliant .. i do recommend it ..

S A F E I N A C R A Z Y W O R L D
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo

I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool

Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me

It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain
to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and I'm
Sinking to my knees but you
You cradle me

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again

Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's
On a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world

'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again

http://www.corrinnemay.com/
(Check out her website .. can listen to all the songs in her latest album there)

2005-06-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

I want to go back to school !! I miss school !! I totally miss school ! I totally totally miss school !!! Someone pls save me !!!

Been working from 11-9 for the last 2 weeks.. Totally shagged .. i realli dislike my job .. the work is alright .. very very mandane all i do everyday is to sit in front of the computer and enter details of room bookings .. for bloody 9 hrs everyday .. and mind u the pple there are either bitches, idiots or bimbos .. my new mantor the chinese girl is a total bitch !! Now i know the reason y the pple in the office are so against her .. Shes super bimbotic !! She sounds like this " Ooh i like ang moh guys .. and i all my previous bfs were all from different countries and i like to go clubbing cuz i like to dance .. blah blah blah" (Typical SPG) and the whole office calls her that .. If onli i could mute her ..
Anyway, i was transfered over to be trained under her cuz my previous mantor had too much work to do so didnt have time to teach me .. and of all pple they had to put me with her .. She treats me like her Slave !! "charmaine do this for me .. charmaine do that for me.. aiyo i cannot see ur makeup can u go and put more" Whether i put make up or not is Non of ur business ! I totally cant stand her !! ARRGGHH
I think we have prolly developed a silent dislike for each other cuz i think she can sense i dont adore her and neither does she adore me .. Sigh..i totally misjudged her .. Yes its my fault .. i let my guard down ..
Theres been like some serious office politics going ard .. so serious till my manager was called into the director's office and came out crying .. i dont realli know wad happened but its 1 against all the full timers..

Work aside .. i went clubbing last friday !! it was my virgin clubbing experience with my babes and maht.. and it didnt quite turn out the way i expected it to be .. prolly cuz we were all not prepared .. it was suppose to be pubbing at Lash (one fullerton) but we decided to go clubbing instead so we went to Onynx just above Lash .. used to be centro not its Onynx.. the club was damm sad .. there were more staff then customers .. haha and practically no one on the dance flr .. i don think it will survive for very long .. Had half a cup of vodka lime .. gave the other half to denise and maht .. Denise was the best that night .. she had 1 1/2 cup vodka lime and 3 tequlia shots .. haha she couldnt walk out of the club properly after that .. we headed over to clark quey for supper after that .. had prata and teh tah rak .. and i felt super nauseus after that .. could sleep the whole night .. teh tak rak and vodka lime just doesnt go together .. But it was fun goin out with my babes ..

Alright .. my moms asking me to go get changed now.. cuz i jst came home from dance not too long ago and i stink .. haha and we goin to botanic gardens to watch this salsa performance .. Will update u guys again .. See ya ~

2005-05-22T14:34:00.000+08:00

Thank god i've got 2 days of off .. the stupid office is getting more and more sickening as the days pass .. pan pac should realli do something abt it .. it looks dam sad .. Been doing fidelio for the pass one week .. staring at the computer screen for 8 hrs everyday .. i think by the end of my SIP i'll prolly be crossed-eyed ..
My manager treated us to dinner on wed .. so after work at about 9 (cuz we had to waite for that cute aussie guy to finish .. btw his name is Ray) we headed to "summer hs" pan pacs coffee hs .. for dinner and i sat opposite Ray !! hehehe .. so yes.. we chatted abit .. hes actually a s'porean but hes studying hospi in aust. I found out something abt him .. he doesnt like desserts !! How weird ?!? haha ..
And he told me he thinks i'm the kind that goes clubbing like every weekend .. i was like "NO WAY!!" and did i mention..he shared his salmon with me ! Awww.. hehe..
Well anyway , during dinner that night .. i found out so many things abt the pple in the office .. that is.. no one likes my German (Prince harry look alike) Director !! cuz they say he never baths !! hahahahaha .. And the women in the office are super bitches .. they bitch abt anything and everything especially this chinese girl in our dept .. they bitch, joke and mock her .. i kinda feel bad for her .. i mean shes a nice girl just abit vain thats all and becuz of that she has to suffer this humiliation .. and if u were thinking i was also involved in this bitching .. i didnt .. cuz if they could bitch abt her .. they could also bitch abt me behind my back .. sheesh .. scary huh .. Welcome to the working world !!

Todays vesak day .. got a dance club bbq later at pasir ris .. choose to go at a later timing so i wont have to see 'someone' ..
Alright thats all for now..
*For those whos starting SIP on Tues .. GOOD LUCK ! and yeah stay away from office politics ! :)*

2005-05-15T09:42:00.000+08:00

Been one week since i've blogged .. and its not because i've been doing lots of work that i don have time to blogg but its cuz i've been totally shagged everyday single day !! the orientation lasted from mon-friday and all we had to do was to sit on this big and nice hermen miller chair (which cost $1000 ! serious!! taka sells it..) in a newly refurbished meeting room and just listen to talks and more talks given by all the heads if department and trust me .. its dead tiring .. so much info to absorb in a day and lots to eat makes one soo tired at the end of the day ..
Anyways, jus to let my readers know.. i got my department postings already ! and originally they gave me 3 mnths reservations department , 1 1/2 mnths sales and marketing and 3 mnths at the bloody coffee house !! waddd so they think i look like a waitress ?? wad the hell am i goin to learn ?? .. was soo pissed that day .. cuz i wanted front office and they didnt even give it to me .. and the rest of my friends who got front office are all not very interested in giving up slots to exchange with me .. cuz everyone ones front office !! Anyway so i managed to change 5 weeks of the coffee hs with the atrium ( the atrium is actually the newly refurbished lounge) its very nice at night .. theres a bar in the middle of the atrium .. well at least there , i can learn abt cocktail/mocktail making etc..

Started work yesterday .. my first day of work ! at the reservations dept .. did filing and filing and more filing learnt abit of fidelio .. my mentor is this malay girl called feezah .. she was from the Ritz working at guest relations then she felt that Ritz was not giving her any opportunity to rise so she came over there .. she quite a nice girl .. but abit stingy when she comes to teaching me how to use the fidelio .. as in she talks very fast and not very detailed .. so i just hope she teaches me properly next week .. cuz i'll be there for 3 mnths and i'll jus die if she doesnt teach me well. And jus to let u know too .. the ppl there are all rather vulgar.. they punctuate their sentence with the F word.. God save me !!

Btw, did i mention theres 2 cute guys in my dept .. hehee .. ones my boss .. hes a young guy from Germany .. girls he looks abit like prince harry .. hahah and the others from Aust .. hes also an intern .. but.. both are taken up already .. sigh ..

I'll be working from 12-8pm for the nest whole week.. yeah got the worse time slot.. :( prolly have to have dinner alone at the cafeteria ..

2005-05-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

Went back to school to watch my dance club perform .. the hip hop was not too bad but the modern was terrible .. gosh i felt so embarressed for them.. the guest performers from cjc were soo good !! I met one of my ex dance friend at the performance ..Anyway , that fellow didnt even say a word of thank you to me after being her bloody maid for the evening .. sigh.. with friends like her .. who needs enermies !!

Worked at parkway yesterday .. it was soo boring .. at least at cocoa tress there were more things to see, to do (more business i mean) i onli managed to sell 12 bottles of perfume ! how sad.. :( but like wad my cousin said .. 'u get paied to stand there' so yeah.. not so bad la ..
Saed came down to pass something to me .. so we chatted for awhile and we saw evan and her family there too.. they were shopping for some stuff.. so 3 of us stood there and chatted abt SIP stuff .. then it was time for me to knock off .. met my parents and had dinner with them .. came home and slept early ..

I gtg now.. meeting my gfs .. goin for dinner with them ..
Tomorrows my first day at Pan Pac .. wish me luck ! :)

2005-05-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

U sickening manipulative ***** !! i'm not ur personal butler alright ! if it was her now its you ! Arghh .. when can i ever get out of this cycle !! wads so great abt seeing u do a stupid 3 min dance huh !! i don even think u can be seen admist all the darkness and the rest of the dancers on stage .. Plueeeaassee when i did my first solo performance i didnt call my grandma , grandpa , uncle , aunty , sister-in-law, cousin, and whoever has the surname tay .. jus cuz ur performing in a 3 min dance .. waaa u ar like calling ur whole clan to come watch .. and even expect me to be their tour guide .. wad is this man ! thank god i'm not with u for the next 6 mnths !

Just to keep my readers updated .. my driving instructor passed away last friday night .. i didnt know it till wed .. so i didnt have the opportunity to go for his wake .. may he rest in peace too..

Sigh .. life is so short ~

2005-05-03T18:57:00.000+08:00

Watched 'Lord of the Dance' last friday at Kallang .. it was Spectacular ! Now i know y the prices of the tickets are soo ex.. but it was totally worth it ! But i'm still sore abt something .. Michael Flatly himself didnt perform !! i dont know if cuz it wasnt his turn to perform that night or he isnt performing at all.. cuz, from wad i know (from the many performances i have participated) is that these kinda big performances that is on going every night .. they have to have 2 lead men/women .. yupz thats wad they do .. just in case the other one falls ill or injured himself.. and they have like a schedule which states which nights the first lead is performing and which nigts the second is taking over .. so they kinda take turns ..
Anyway, my cousins going to watch the show next sat .. so if he does perform on that day then i'll be soo angry !! i wan to watch him perform !!!!!

Going for dirving lesson tomorrow.. no my teacher is not well already .. hes still in hospital i think but this fellow was introduced to me by my teacher.. apparently my teacher asked this fellow to take over la.. yeah .. i hope hes good.. :)

Oo.. just to let u all know.. i've got a one day job this sat ! haa.. i'll actually be taking over my cousin .. i'll be promoting perfume at parkways john little ! hee.. so peeps.. do drop by and see me yeah ! :)

2005-05-01T18:41:00.000+08:00

About an hr ago .. my mom broke the news to me that my dad's friend had passed away early this morning. When i heard the news i was stumped .. i knew he was admitted to hospital the day before .. but my dad reassured us that everything was alright and he would recover soon .. i just wasnt prepared for this .. it came too sudden .. i was speechless.. 'shocked' was more like it..
This friend of my fathers was more then just a friend .. he was like an uncle to me .. he never treated us as mere acquaitences .. he welcomed us into his life .. his family .. he wasnt compelled to but he did ..
My dad knew him many many yrs ago .. even before i was born .. they had some business dealings and eventually, he become a family friend ..both his family and my family were rather close and i remembered that i first met him when i was only 8 then, and he spoke to me over the ph from Brisbane (thats where he stays) and asked me what i wanted from there as he was coming to s'pore for a holiday and will be staying with my family for a few days. i vividly remembered telling him i wanted bubblegum .. (Y bubblegum ?) cuz that was the fad in those days.. haa.. and being only 8 i wouldnt have known about Australia's famous strawberries or stuffed koala bears.. anyway, that uncle did brought me bubblegum !! hhaaha all the way from aust ..
I could also remember the time when my whole family went up to brisbane and my brother and i stayed with them at their house there, my dad and mom went site seeing and left my brother and i with him and his wife. But cuz his wife had to do some grocery shopping that day (we were gona have a bbq that night) it was jus me, my brother and him .. Not knowing what to do with 2 brats , he drove us ard town, then took us to the wharf and bought fish and chips for us , it was the first time i ate fish and chips wrapped in a newspaper without ketchup but vinegar ! this big indian man with two asian kids sitting in the car, parked in front of the wharf eating fish and chips while they watched the sea gulls fly by occasionally staring out at the big blue ocean , it was a sight i can never forget, it was a time when the sky matched the colour of the sea. Simple, beautiful, pure and nice..
And that was how that uncle was.. a man who could make something so simple seem so beautiful..
The last time i met him was 2 yrs back.. he came to s'pore for a holiday and i was having my O's at that time so i didnt spend much time with him and my family .. and on one night, my family brought him out for dessert at some cheesecake cafe and he came into my room before they left and asked me what i wanted and if he could get something back for me, so i told him i wouldnt mind having a slice of cheesecake. When he came home i nearly fainted , he was carrying 3 boxes of cake ! he said "i didnt know wad flavour of cheesecake u liked so i bought you one of every kind they had in the store" i was so touched .. and yes still shocked ..
He treats me just like his own daughter or niece .. and i wan to remember him that way ..
The fond memories of him will always stay in my heart and may he rest in peace.

2005-04-28T12:31:00.000+08:00

Its 12.30am and i'm sitting here listening to Ken Hirai on lycos and bloggin away.. I think ken hirai's voice is so unique .. soo dreamy and smooth .. whether hes crooning ballads or singing a faster paced song .. its jus soo good .. especially this song 'lovin you' it was originally sang by this lady singer who prolly has huge lungs thats y this song is soo high pitched .. but ken hirai managed to sing it beautifully !! :) so mesmerized ...

Ok.. back to earth now.. well at this time.. i should be on the roads but my driving instructor had a heart attack last night and is in Hospital right now.. called him this morn and his son spoke to me .. could sense this sadness in his voice.. felt so sorrie for him .. sigh.. life is soo fragile .. i do hope he recovers fast .. cuz i think hes the sole bread winner of his family and they realli depend on him..

Alrighty.. going off to meet my gf ....

2005-04-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

Went back to school today for the launch of SIP .. Started of with some sharing session by some of the seniors.. i must say .. they are a bunch of humorous people .. i never knew my seniors were such fun loving people..such a vast difference from my batch if coursemates.. sigh.. (think u know who i'm referring to) hahah..

Met my LO today.. Desmond Lim .. and surprise .. hes rather slack .. he onli spoke to us for like 20 mins and thats it.. we were the earliest to be let off !! ok i take back my word for now .. haha .. hes not all that boring and not a horrible mean guy i imagined him to be .. hes actually quite nice .. hes so sweet to leave this msg for us all : " Hope the LO briefing session was useful. As mentioned, do your SIP well and if you have any problems, do approach me. Also take good care of yourself and be safe at all times! "
Sounds soo much like a parent huh..

Went to the new Dian Tai Fung at TM for lunch with Meiyin today.. Had Xiao Long Bao !! :P been a long time since i had dian tai fung's xiao long bao.. walked ard tm and century sq.. checked out all the different perfumes at isetan .. we collected soo many samples that we forgot which was which .. Sat down at Mc for an Ice cream and chatted .. left Tm at ard 3.30 cuz Meiyin had to go for her driving theory test ..

Came home and read thru my advance theory .. theres like so much to remember .. playe with Hannah Boo.. poor girl .. shes got some bruises on her face.. her mom brought her to the docs for a blood test to see wad was wrong .. hope shes fine ..
Spoke to den and qian over the ph.. gona meet qian tomorrow for lunch after my driving ..

Going to watch discovery channel now..

2005-04-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

Stayed till like 3am at Dens house. Thank god Angeline has a car.. i'll prolly reach home at 4 if she didnt have a car .. Thankx so much Angeline .. yes i know i owe u soo many many favors .. hahah..

Met HuiRan today .. Had lunch with her at citilink then we took a walk round suntac.. then accompanied her to Tangs at orchard cuz she wanted to get the fragrance 'be delicious' by DKNY for her friends b-day.. bought my MAC lipgloss (at last !!) been wanting to get one since last yr .. HuiRan bought hers from stila cuz she already has a MAC . The two guys at the stila counter are soo GAY !! OMGosh.. but they were more professional .. they helped my friend apply the gloss and recommended colours that suits her skin .. wherelse the lady at MAC jus showed me the range of lipgloss and told me to pick the one i like .... prolly cuz their items are more expensive then MACs so better service? cuz my lipgloss costs 26 and stila costs 36 .. hahah

Had dinner with my parents then met my moms friends for dessert .. came home early Desmond Lim http://www-bus.tp.edu.sg/ check him out man .. gosh so GAY !! he likes nature .. a nature loving man .. i bet hes behind all the GO GREEN campaign .. man he is so in the wrong line .. he should be working for the ministry of environment, help look after all the trees in S'pore .. Boy i hope hes not boring .. but thank god i didnt get that GOH fellow (the one who took me for wine test)
Going to sleep now.. nitez..

2005-04-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

Watched Guess Who with my cousin at P.S the other day, the storyline was alright .. nothing fascinating.
Went shopping with my mom yesterday and managed to get what i wanted .. yeah .. i busted my budget .. i planned to spent like abt hundred on everything but .. hee.. couldnt la.. cuz the jeans i bought is already more then 60 bucks (yup thats how ex jeans are nowadays) had lunch at taka but didnt eat much cuz i was having gastric .. it sorta comes and goes.. Went over to my cousins hs for dinner and we just vegged out in front of the tv .. my cousin was trying to get some unsightly snapshots of me .. Talking abt my cousin (whose name is Clara)she'll be goin to Uni of Wastern Aus.. Congrats B (her pet name) ! Man i'm gona miss her .. When shes gone there will be No one to lend me VCDs & CDs , No one to help me burn games etc..and i will have less one playmate :(

Stayed home the whole day today and slacked .. goin out for steamboat dinner with my aunty and parents later ..

*Erica.. sorrie i didnt call u today .. but i hope u have a great time in Perth with Norman ya ! Tc .. :)

2005-04-19T11:22:00.000+08:00

Had such a great weekend !

(Friday)
My Dads b-day.. So i brought him out for dinner, we had Italian food. It was soo freaking Ex but i couldnt say anything cuz it was my dads b-day.. but i realli burned a hole in my pocket !! well..its once in a yr kinda thing so yeah :)

(Sat)
Met my cousins in the afternoon to have lunch with them at Marche cuz Sam had a 60 dollar voucher . We ate soo much !! we ordered pork knuckles, calamari, soft shell crab, mushroom soup and bread & butter pudding. Walked ard town lunch and i managed to buy a bag from Mango . Left at 4 to visit my cousin in hospital. Had dinner with my parents then met my mom friends and had some light drinks b4 my dad dropped me off at Dens house.
Went out with my babes .. we met at like 10pm at dens house then left at ard 11 to have supper.. couldnt decide on the place cuz it was 11 at night and we couldnt realli think of anyplace we could chill out so late at night.. plus both my gfs and i wanted somewhere with food, dessert and aircon .. hahaha so i was thinking of TCC .. called saed up to ask fer directions.. ahhaha Thx Saed ! but we didnt go there in the end cuz i think both my gfs not realli good with directions hahahah .. and Angeline aka our chauffeur said she wanted to eat noodles.. so in the end we ended up at the 24hr mee pok stall along east coast rd .. ate our noodles then den said shes got this craving for Durian !! so yeah we drove down to Geylang to have durian at 1am in the morning ! Finished our durian and decided to see the 'night life' in Geylang so we drove thru the even no. lanes .. yess .. the 'red light district' hahahah it was eye opening for both of them ! hahaha
Drove back to my house and we sat in Angelines car and talked till like close to 4am.

(Sun)
Went for dance class came home and slacked.. wasnt feeling too good cuz its that time of the month and all u wana do is sleep and eat and sleep .

(Mon)
Went out wif my aunty.. Dropped by at TTS to visit my cousin again .. yess hahah ..
had lunch at novena then went for physiotherapy. Drove down to twon cuz my aunty had to get something from Tangs and had tea at coffee bean outside of borders. Went home just in time for dinner ! :)

2005-04-15T13:32:00.000+08:00

i am soo freaking pissed !! Those blrdy inconsiderate drivers out there .. i hope someone scratches your car !!! Cant u see the god dam (L) sign behind my car ! Honk Honk Honk .. thats all ur good for ! I so wanted to put the reverse gear on and release the clutch !! Wamh into your stinking car !! Anyway ur stupid car doesnt cost much and it looks so dilapidated .. i can do u a favour by scraping ur car for u !! Better watch where ur going dude .. cuz i hope someday when u honk some other car the fellow comes down and punch u and then u wont be able to drive for sometime.. HAHHHAHHHAHHAHAHHA !!!!!!(evil laugh)

2005-04-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

Just came home from visting my cousin in hospital.. Poor fellow.. Hes down with dengue. Didnt do much today except going to the physotherapists.. he did some accupuncture on me.. Came home and didnt do anything constructive the whole afternoon.

2005-04-11T12:53:00.000+08:00

(Monday)
Second driving lesson today.. I can do a 3 point turn !! hehe.. i'm so proud of myself !! :) Gona do some packing then reading and waste the rest of the day away .. yeah!!

(Sunday)
Went for dance class in the afternoon then came home and baked cookies.. my whole kitchen was overflowing with cookies cuz i tink i made some wrong measurements.. went out for steamboat dinner with moi parents and after dinner .. my mom dragged me to the gym at my club cuz she said i was getting too fat and lazy .. hahaaha.. came home to watch Operah .. she had this small acting debut on desperate housewifes.

2005-04-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

Went for dental in the morning then came home to cook lunch . Received my results in the afternoon.. didnt do too well.. but i'm very pleased with my Accts.. realli owe it to one of my poly mates for helping me . Gota buy her lunch ..
Met my Aunty at citihall then took a train to novena.. was accompanying her to see her physotherapists. The doctor turned out to be a big jolly swiss man.. he kept cracking us up.. Walked ard novena for awhile and bought a cake from bakery depot..then we went to my grandmas hs for dinner. The cake was bad.. Horrible and it costs me 5 bucks just for a small slice.. Got home at 9.30 and watched tv for the rest of the evening ..

2005-04-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

(Sunday)
Had dinner at this Indian Restaurant at East Cost called 'Mango Tree' with Evan & her bf, Sophie and one of Evans guy friend.. A very nice ambiance and the food was fantastic !! we tried almost all the different flavours of nun.. the mango one was the best i must say . Sat ard to chat for awhile then me and Sophie left early, cuz Sophie wanted to watch her tv show.

(Monday)
Didnt do anything .. just some minor packing here and there .. Went out for dinner with my parents at Suntac. Bought a top at Mango .

(Tuesday)
I visited the Chocolate Factory !! hehe.. and the Salmon factory too. Both at woodlands with the Sjcc people .. They were selling the chcoclates at such a cheap price.. 9 pieces of SINS chocs for onli 5 bucks! i had to get it .. hehe
While i was visiting the Salmon factory i received a call from Maht .. Telling me my ex cocoa trees employer passed away.. his onli ard 35 yrs old.. felt very sad cuz .. he was still so young.. and i heard that he just recently became a father. Its realli sad to know that he wont have a chance to be there for his child in his/her growing up yrs. Sigh .. life is unpredictable.. i remember how we used to dislike him for being such a stingy boss.. and yes i kinda feel guilty that i said he was a horrible boss (cuz someone asked me yesterday if i did stop to think abt the things i said)
Was suppose to go for my poly friends chalet but didnt cuz i know i will feel very out there.. the pple there are 'different'. So i met up with Candy for dinner.. we ate at the food court and did alot of catching up .. we walked ard abit.. and ended up at Kinokuniya.. was browsing thru some books with Candy standing near the end of the book shelf when an old man approached her.. he started rambling abt the kind of books she should be reading .. hahahha it was hilarious .. cuz Candy looked stunned as she listened to the mad man telling her she should be checking out the Japanese Literature section instead .. hahaha and he kept asking her y she was reading some junk and that she should get herself some good books..i didnt want to interrupt them so i walked to the other end of the book shelf and pretended to be looking for my books.. hahahahaha.. After the mad man left.. Candy came over and i just started laughing hysterically.. we then grab our books and left .. I bought this book called 'Soul Mountain' by Gao XingJian hes the first chinese recipient of the Nobel Prize for literature. So i felt i had to check out his book..
Walked ard wisma and left after that..

(Today)
Had my very first driving lesson today !! it was good fun.. my the instructor is abit weird.. scruffy looking, unshaven and wears lots of fake gold rings and a thick gold necklace.. the bldy aircon in his car is totally useless man ! i was perspiring like mad !! Played computer games the whole afternoon..

2005-04-03T11:28:00.000+08:00

Applied for my Advance theory test in the morning with Angeline then we had Mc Donalds breakfast. Headed to Denise's place and stayed there the whole afternoon cuz Angeline had to do some designing thingy for her school project and Den was helping her..

Went to the Miss S'pore finals in the evening, held at media corp. Everyone there was soo dressy .. from boys to girls, ladies to men . And yes.. many 'whos who' were there too and i dono if u count that as fortunate or wad.. but i had the opportunity to meet and be introduced to some of them. Trust me .. alot of them are just 'o so fake' but it was definitely an eye opening experience at the post show cocktail reception..all the celebs were there, and yes i saw that male model cum judge .. John Hanson .. i think its spelt like that.. or it sounds like it. He is cute ! wanted to take a picture with him .. but there were jus soo many girls surrounding him that i didnt get a chance to. But suprisingly , hes not very tall in real life .. hahah.. Went for supper after that with my friend and her family.
Last night, was truly amazing.. to be able to met soo many 'influential' people .. An experience i'll never forget.

2005-04-02T00:50:00.000+08:00

Got my hair done today !! The result ? my hair is very short now .. and i kinda look like an egg now.. cuz my hair is super straight so its also super flat .. so in other words i look disgusting .. and tomorrow night i'm going to the finals of Miss S'pore .. cuz my friend who is also the present miss s'pore invited me.. i was trying to look for something suitable to wear for tomorrow nights thingy.. and i cant seem to find anything !! dam it ! i asked her and she said jeans is fine .. but my mom was like " no way are u goin to wear jeans !" ARRGHh .. prolly have to do some last min shopping tomorrow.. sheesh .. alright .. going to get some beauty sleep .. meeting Angeline tomorrow morning cuz shes gona accompany me to sign up for my advance theory ! Nite peeps ! :)

P.s tune in to channel 5 tomorrow night at 7.30pm hee..

2005-03-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

Met Evan and Sophie yesterday .. did abit of window shopping and watched a movie.. Miss Congeniality 2 at Lido.. it was alright .. nothing fantastic.. i think part 1 was better. Gona meet up for dinner on Sunday with them :)

Played sims 2 and watched cartoons the whole day today.. and sesame street totally sux !! wad happened to cookie monster ?? when did he suddenly become a vegetarian ?? How can they make him sing a song about 'eating vegs cuz its good for you' i don remember cookie monster ever eating his greens? and i jus cant figure out y my sim got electrocuted from repairing the tv and then became senile after that, thats wad the computer said "your sims is senile".. i mean i made her read books to increase her mechanical skills but y did she get electrocuted? hahah but it was funnie watching my sim get electrocuted !! Accompanied my mom to buy dinner then watched CHASE .. Utt looks totally gay .. he doesnt on mtv .. but on CHASE he does !

I'm listening to this song right now..

It's About Time lyrics
(Jamie Cullum)
Walking down to the water's edge
Where I have been before
If I don't find my love sometime
I'm walking out that door
Some may come and some may go
But no-one seems to be
The person I've been searching for
The one whose meant for me
Biding my time, trying to find a heart that's lonely
Looking for her, my love my one and only
Maybe I'll dream, tonight about the girl who'll be coming my way
So I'll take this chance and celebrate the day
When I'm making my way through an open door
I've got some love and so much more
And I'm ready to make someone mine
Making my way through an open door
I've got some love and so much more
And I'll find her, 'cos it's about time
You try too hard and it feels just like
You're running on thin air
Why does luck happen by suprise
If you don't really care
The past is gone the flames are out
From fires that have burned
New ideals and different thoughts
From lessons I have learned
Biding my time, trying to find a heart that's lonely
Looking for her, my love my one and only
Maybe I'll dream, tonight about the girl who'll be coming my way
So I'll take this chance and celebrate the day
When I'm making my way through an open door
I've got some love and so much more
And I"m ready to make someone mine
Making my way through an open door
I've got some love and so much more
And I'll find her, 'cos it's about time
Got the feeling this could take a pretty long while
To find that smile
Put my faith in another piece of good advice
Well I tried that twice
Waiting for, a little something more
To inspire, take me higher
And I"m ready to make someone mine
Making my way through an open door
I've got some love and so much more
And I'll find her, 'cos it's about time
It's about time..

2005-03-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

Had Wine opening class yesterday.. and it was soo pathetic.. there was onli 3 of us who went.. plus one more fellow who came in realli late as he happened to walk pass Saffron.. haha.. Tan Hsien Wei taught us fer like 3 hrs.. We practised and practised like mad and my hands hurt alot now.. all sore from opening bottles and bottles of wine. That Tan Hsien Wei though skinny .. he has alot of strength !! haha.. Took some pics of the remainding Saffron .. sigh.. i'm gona miss that place..
Wen to town with Charlene and Meiyin after the lesson and we had lunch at centrepoint .. then we went window shopping .. Accompanied charlene to pluck her eyebrowns at paragon and saw Ah Do there u know the construction worker turn singer.. i don understand wads so great about him .. and his hair sux ! anyway.. i was soo tempted to pluck my ee browns too when we reach the place so i wen ahead and did it and it was a total mistake !! i told the blrdy lady who did my eye browns that i don wan such a high arch and not to make it soo thing too and guess wad she did ?? she did the opposite of wad i told her not to do !! ARGH .. i look freaking ugly !! total ah lian.. i'm so embarrassed ! i'm contemplating on having eye brown hair implants cuz i wan my original eye brown back !!! i cant face the world any more !! i was thinking all night if there is a way to hide my eye browns till it grows back ?? Reached home at 7 and watched tv the whole night..

Woke up at like 12 today..veg out in front of the com till lunch .. cooked maggi noodles for my maid and i (cuz she too couldn't figure out wad she should have for lunch) haha.. then slumped in front the tv for the rest of the afternoon.. was watching this show called "Ticket to Indulgence" on Discovery travel while finishing off my remainding Lindt irish coffee .. the programme was amazing! it was introducing different kinds of room services money can buy in all the best hotels in the US and i nearly chocked on my chocolates when i saw wad kind of room services some hotels offer.. like the Hotel Parisi in the US, they have an in house personal Psychologist on speed dial !! can u imagine that ?? and Hotel 1200 .. they have a recording studio inside the hotel !!! Madness !! and.. and it gets better.. you can actually BUY and customise your own fireworks at the Ritz Carlton New York ! gosh.. Wonder if i would ever have a chance to buy my own fireworks.. ok yeah i know .. i'm dreaming..

Went to parkway with my mom to get some stuff done.. then bought porridge for dinner.. Den called me saying shes ending work early today .. so decided to meet her up fer dinner (my second dinner) i'm growing FAT.. Met her at Tampinese mall and we had Delifrance.. the cafe mocha was suprisingly good.. walked around after dinner then left at ard 10. Came home and played some computer games while eating my eclar from beard papa.. not too bad but a wee bit too sweet. Going to dreamland now.. tata~

It was nice spending time alone with you.. take care babe .. hope to see u again ! Hugz~

2005-03-28T00:49:00.000+08:00

Accompanied Sophie to her church service cum easter performance this morning and we had to queue up like for an hr to get in ! can u imagine it ?? u have to queue up to go church ? The thingy was held at the indoor stadium by the way.. and well.. the whole experience was er.. "eye-opening" don wan to go into that cuz i might probably end up getting a slap from my christian friends.. (if ur interested to know the saucy details i could tell u in private but not here) but i must say the pple there were very friendly. The whole thing ended at ard 2 and we took a bus and then a cab back .. Vegetated in front of the tv the rest of the day.

Alright..i'm tired gtg now.. goin school tomorrow fer some wine opening class my lects ar conducting .. good night ! :)
Hope u all like this new song..

2005-03-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

MEIT suxed today.. couldnt remember what i learned the night before.. Yes so exams are over.. but it hasn't quite sunk in yet ..
Rushed to Simei mrt today to meet Amelia then we headed down to orchard. We went to queue up at Sakai Sushi at Wheelock Place and waited for the rest to arrive.. we were giving denise a b-day suprise !! She didnt know we had re arranged to meet at sakai and thought that she was just going to have lunch with one of my friend and her 'family'. Met Mel there too.. We are jus so fated Mel ! haha.. Den came much later after we found a seat and she didnt look suprised at all to see all of us there. Ended lunch at close to 3 then we bought den a small cake from BIG O (btw.. the chocolate cakes there all look soooo yummy .. Drools) There wasnt any proper place to sit down and cut the cake .. so bunked into angeline's (the girl who broke my easter egg) car and headed over to my house instead to cut the cake.. Hung ard till 7 then they left and i followed my parents out fer dinner.

Dropped by at Parco after dinner to do some quick shopping and rushed home cuz afew of my mom's friends were dropping by.. Realli tired now.. going to bed.. so good night !! :)

I just uploaded some pics on the net .. Heres the webby: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/smilyland/my_photos

2005-03-24T20:05:00.000+08:00

Una Noche by The Corrs

Despues de pensar
Despues de ver
A mi dolor andar
Sobre el agua del mar
Tibia claridad
que vi por mi calle pasar
sin saber quhacer
si sentir o pensar
si no que aun hoy
sigo aun, aun hoy
sigo atandome a ti

Aun hoy
Mi amor
te doy
mi cuerpo con alma
se esconde
del sol
de noche se escapa
aun hoy
te doy
mi cuerpo con alma
aun hoy
aun hay

Quesconde la noche
Va a guardar
Entre nosotros dos
o sentir o pensar
Se me llende luz la noche
es porque yo vi nadar
delfines en tu voz
y sentir sin pensar
solo
Aun hoy sigo aun
Aun hoy sigo amndote a ti

Aun hoy, mi amor
Aun hay
Dos cuerpos con alma
Se esconden del sol
De noche se escapan
De noche se dan
Dos cuerpos, dos almas
aun hoy
aun hay

Solo que aun hay sigo a
Aun hoy sigo amandote a ti
Amandote a ti
Aun hoy, mi amor
Aun hay
dos cuerpos con alma
se esconden del sol
De noche se escapan
De noche se dan
los cuerpos, las almas

Aun hoy aun hay
Aun hay...

I'm just in love with this song..

2005-03-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

Just 1 more paper to go .. then its Halleluya !! Pom just suxed !! On the day of pom exam i walked into the wrong class and found out onli when somebody else was already seating on "my seat" then i asked Mr Ram if i was in the right class and he kinda gave that "omg .. ur so blur" laugh .. sheesh .. but yeah i have to admit he has nice teeth .. Anyway..lucky for me, patrick also couldn't find the class and he just sits behind me so both of us were like franticly trying to find the class.. thank god he found it in time .. the paper itself was not tough but hte questions phrased were like in another language man ! and to make matters worse, the guy sitting next to me .. he was continuously writting like mad.. and the stupid me was still trying to figure out wad the qn is asking !

Denise and Angeline called me today to go town and sigh.. i had to turn them down.. i so had the urge to say yes to them .. they went shopping today !!!!! but den was nice enough to say she'll come by my hs to see me .. thx :) .. Really realli miss u girls !! and you too Erica Lim ! haha.. Dono if denise will be reading this.. "den i know whens ur b-day.. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10.....31 March ! Must be one of these days ! hahahah and cuz i don think i'll have time to get u a pressie i'll jus probably look thru my old unwanted stuff to see if there anything suitable fer you k ! hahahahah

Alright .. i gtg continue to mug now.. MEIT is killing me ! Incentive travel, meetings , exhibitions .. y do i need to know abt all these ??? Y o Y ?? Good nite Peeps .

2005-03-13T00:43:00.000+08:00

Went for the NE talk this morn.. not as boring as the previous one i went for..didn't quite enjoy myself though..

" You *%#@~ !!!!!!! you spoiled my whole freaking day ! you cant seem to keep ur god dam mouth shut ! its not like ur voice is so pleasing to the ear ! so wad if i said things..MYOB !! i can't please the whole world ! You jus cant waite to stab me in the back .. thx alot for the publicity .. but i don need it ! i'm darn sick of having to do stuff for u too ! i don owe u anything .. thx god i wont be seeing u fer the next 6 1/2 mnths ! pleeaassssee GROW UP !! "

Gosh.. i feel much better now.. gd nite ! :)

2005-03-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

Went "Au Jardin" for lunch yesterday .. nearli got lost.. thx to my dad who said he knew where it was and ended up driving into SMU instead.. The rest is rather small.. Cozy i would say.. the decor is simple but tastefully furnished.. Lunch started at ard 12 plus and it ended at about 1.30.. The food was rather good but the portions were extremely miserable.. the appetizer was the worse ! it looked like food scrapes on the plate !! i absolutely couldnt taste wad i was eating !! it was jus bits and pieces of raw salmon.. but i must say they were rather generous with their caviar.. One of the lects who was also there also felt that the portions were a wee bit too little.. haa After lunch, we were brought round the rest. The funniest part was that the waiter took us to see the kitchen and just so happened the chef was slicing foie gra and i dont know if it was intentional or wad but he made us all stand there for like close to 20 mins just watching the chef slice the raw foie gra with all the blood still on it. haha.. Probably he tot that we had never seen foie gra b4 ?
Everything ended at 2pm and Sophie and me took a cab home.. Slept for awhile and got up to finish off my mask for CDS and learning of the wines for the proficiency test today.

Proficiency test was Horrible today.. The lect who took the whole class for wine opening today.. is a totally jerk ! A super scarcastic, egoistic, gay ! He failed me for my test and said i was taking such a long time to do wine service that if i were working in a rest i would be a liability ! GAWN.. such a Horrible bad man !! Had lunch with Grace and Kexin.. Then we wanted to watch a movie in school but all the dvd players were being used.. so we went shopping instead.. headed for tm and century sq..we bought some earings!! Wen back to school for MEIT lect which lasted onli 30 mins !! haha.. took a cab home and Zzzzz...

2005-03-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

Spent half of my sat at school.. how exciting.. sigh.. had dance class early in the morning then met my CDS classmate to help her do her mask. It took about 3hrs to make her mask ! Was so shagged tat i zonked out when i reached home. Woke up jus in time to go for dinner .. had seafood at siglap .. food was alright.. bought a chocolate chip cheese cake from secret recipe.. gosh .. it was soo ex .. 5 bucks for a slice ! ouch ! vegged out in front of the tv when i got home and slept at close to 2am.

Jus finished eating my lunch of yong tau foo.. trying to finish up my arts appreciation project.. doing on Liu Kang.. and its not easy to do on him cuz there isnt much info abt him. Its 3pm now and i should be at my dance class now.. dancing away my sunday but..i'm stuck with Liu Kang on this very sad sunday afternoon..

2005-03-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

The Bare Necessities ( Jungle Book )

Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
Old Mother Nature's recipes
That brings the bare necessities of life

Wherever I wander, wherever I roam
I couldn't be fonder of my big home
The bees are buzzin' in the tree
To make some honey just for me
When you look under the rocks and plants
And take a glance at the fancy ants
Then maybe try a few

The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!

Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
That's why a bear can rest at ease
With just the bare necessities of life

Now when you pick a pawpaw
Or a prickly pear
And you prick a raw paw
Next time beware
Don't pick the prickly pear by the paw
When you pick a pear
Try to use the claw
But you don't need to use the claw
When you pick a pear of the big pawpaw
Have I given you a clue ?

The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!

So just try and relax, yeah cool it
Fall apart in my backyard
'Cause let me tell you something little britches
If you act like that bee acts, uh uh
You're working too hard

And don't spend your time lookin' around
For something you want that can't be found
When you find out you can live without it
And go along not thinkin' about it
I'll tell you something true

The bare necessities of life will come to you

2005-03-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

I think i'm turning insane.. i kicked up a big fuss today jus cuz my little neighbours came over .. i'm usually not like that.. i dono wads happening to me.. stress i guess.. my mom was super shocked, i could see that on her face.. i mean i realli dono what came over me.. i jus didnt want noise and they were making alot of noise so i jus sat there and sulked. Theres jus so much of things on my mind right now and i'm jus damn shagged and i don wan anyone to be disturbing my rest. Mad huh..

Anyways, I spoke to erica today over the ph.. told me abt some stuff of hers..(GIRLS i'll fill u guys in another time ya). But erica .. i totally understand how ur feeling and i hope everything turns out fine for u ya..
Sat the bus home with my primary school friend today.. talked alot abt our old times in school.. and it was fun catching up on the old times.

Going off now.. not realli in the mood to blog.. nite!

2005-02-27T00:58:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Norah Jones concert and it was fantabulous !!! Her voice was so rasphy and at the same time soo soothing..she sang all her hit songs and songs that cant be found on her cd .. her "Handsome" band was not too bad also..though the gitarist is a wee bit old. The tickets my aunt booked realli suxed and thru out the whole concert i was jus looking at the big screen, the concert didnt have elevated seats, the seating was flat..poor planning done..but her voice made up for it. Shes jus so good at the piano .. fantastic ! hee a pity my poor brother missed it. Met my school friend and my dance teacher there at the concert. Had supper at Kallang with my aunt then she dropped me home.

Went out for dinner with my family friends last night.. we ate at some coffee shop at joo chiat .. the food was great and we brought our own desserts, cream puff, eclars and cheese cake .. oo.. delicious! And my moms friend bought me some 'Reeses peanut butter chocolate bars' something that can onli be found in the US.. so nice of her to think of me when she was there.. came home at 12 plus and slept till 11 am today.

2005-02-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

I signed with Pan Pac on Thursday .. so its confirmed. I'm jus having mixed feelings about going to pan pac.. on one hand pan pac has offered me the dept that i want but on the other hand pan pac isn't my ideal kinda hotel that i wan to do my internship in..but i guess its all too late now that i've signed the contract already..well i'll just have to try and make the best out of it..Ritz was very disappointing..my opinion of ritz has totally changed and it was such a let down.. sigh..

Been sick since Tuesday and school work has not been kind to me.. i have 4 more project submissions and a proficiency test coming up.. i dono if i can hang in there till exams are over.. i'm tired..

"You'll never go unnoticed cuz i will notice you.. You'll never go unwitnessed cuz i will witness you"

2005-02-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

I think i'm coming down with something nasty.. my throat hurts and my nose is either blocked or it keeps running like an open tap. And to make matters worse .. my muscles are aching from sunday's dance .. i feel so old..sigh..
My dad and mom have both gone to watch a movie leaving me alone at home.. but i'm glad they went .. its been quite awhile since they've both gone for a movie together.
Talking about movies, i caught the movie "Shall we dance" last week, and it was good.. but not as good as honey or dirty dancing 2. But i must say .. i felt JLo over-acted in some scenes.. but she definately has a great body.. and Richard Gere..though old but hes still very charming..

Went to the esplanade last night..there was some sort of CNY fair going on.. lots of families with kids of all ages, momies and daddies and grandpas and grandmas, babies and aunties.. it was infested with them.. i ended up having a fest.. bought lots of food from the little stalls around and was pigging out with my dad. My mom kept shaking her head saying "Are ur here to walk or to eat?" I think S'pore should have more of these kinda places.. cuz theres realli nothing much to do here on weekends except hunting down new food joints or checking out where the best dao hui is. Basically thats the pass time of my family..

Alrighty .. i need to go get some work done cuz tomorrows my MEIT interview.. so nites u all.. :)

2005-02-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

Alot of people has been asking me "char where are u going for your internship" honestly speaking.. i truly have no idea.. i mean i have a contract waiting for me to sign at Pan Pac.. but then again i'm also waiting for Ritz to call me for the third interview.. I very confused myself.. i think i still dono what is it that i really want. Sigh..

Yesterday was TP open hs..had saffron in the morning.. it was the slackest Saffron i've ever had.. how i wished every Saffron lesson was like that.. No Mr Joseph around.. it was wonderful !! enjoyed every moment of it. Had lunch with Lydia and 2 other friends then i took a bus home..

Its 12.12 on a sat morning.. still in front of my com blogging away..at the back of my mind i'm still thinking about my internship.. Y hasn't Ritz called me yet ??? MS THIO y are u taking soo bloody long ??
i tell myself this at least twice a day.. "charmaine u have other more important things to do then to jus sit here and sulk abt ritz not calling u yet.." i think i'm turing insane..

2005-01-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

Yes people ! i re-did my blog .. hows it this time ? yeah i know .. the tag boards a wee bit small huh .. well i didn't design this u know.. but u can find the tagboard under profiles.. u jus have to scroll down ..anwyays, my lifes been alright since the last time i blogged.. nothings changed .. except for my weight.. i gained weight !!!! been shopping for chinese new yr clothings and doing my sip stuff.. seriously cant decide if i should do events or hotel .. i jus pray hard that i won suffer for my six mths internship !!

alright .. i gtg .. got some accts to finish up .. so toodles.. will blog again ! :)

2005-01-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

-Maroon 5- (Sunday Morning)
Sunday morning, rain is falling
Steal some covers, share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy, living live gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness, she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather, still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness, she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning, rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing, "Someday it'll bring me back to you."
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness, she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow...

This song is soo cool.. pple u gota go listen to it !

2005-01-12T13:33:00.000+08:00

My blog has been like in active for ages.. very sorrieee.. its jus that i have lots to say and lots to write but i jus don have the time to put all my thoughts down to words.. work has been jus soo much.. My CDS (extra sub) especially.. i'm practically the onli one doing the whole project by myself.. my team mates jus dump the whole thing to me.. gota re-read the whole 'Lord of the flies' book .. cuz thats what my gp has decided to put up for the play. I gota write out the whole script and make sure its (10 mins long.. on the dot) to top it all.. i still have my other projects.. and mid sem is next week ! i'm sooo dead.. I want my freedom !!!

Anyway.. nothing special has been goin on the past few mnths.. But one thing that i must mention is that .. i'm quite excited that i'm staring my SIP (internship) soon.. but then i'm rather worried abt securing a place in one of the better hotels.. okie i gtg now.. start to mugg for my exams.. NITEZ

2005-01-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

'People flung into the air like confetti'

Arjuna Seneviratna, a 40-year-old IT consultant from Sri Lanka, lives in the capital Colombo but was staying in Beruwela on the south-western coast when the tsunami wave struck.
He witnessed the tsunami, and told the news and current affairs programme The World about the harrowing experience.

When the first wave came in, we were happy that we were seeing something that was really strange, but it was a very mild wave. Then the sea receded back, and we didn't know what that meant.

It was like someone had pulled the plug on the ocean, and crags and outcroppings of rock inside the sea were visible for the first time in years.

We just watched it, and I was taking photographs of it. Then came this massive wall of water. What did I do? I just sat and watched it. I just watched it and watched it as it came in - it took maybe four seconds from the point when I was aware of it to the point when it hit the hotel.

Those four seconds were like a lifetime. Even if someone runs at you with a knife, you can hit him back, or run away or claim insurance or whatever. This time, there was nothing I could do. I could only watch, and it was coming in, and it hit the crags, and I saw those people on the crags just being flung into the air like confetti, just blown out of the water.

'Life terminating'

Then this thing hit the hotel - I was on the first floor of the building in the restaurant - and it was like a bomb hit it. I saw a part of it just get taken off.

I still kept watching. I don't know why - I think that my mind was so completely numbed by the phenomenon of this, and the power of what was happening. I just stood. I stood my ground, not because I'm Superman, or a superhero, but I didn't know what to think.

And this thing blasted through - I heard windows just bursting, not breaking, but bursting. It's a very special sound. It was like a movie. I just watched the whole thing.

I watched it go - I watched it take so much away. I saw so much life terminating, that I was seriously wondering what was more difficult - whether to live watching death, or just to die.

I really don't know if my life was in danger. There were five hotels that were really hard-hit in Sri Lanka - one of them was the hotel that I was at. I know only one thing: that there is no hotel there now. I do not know how I lived.

I wasn't submerged in water. The problem is not being submerged in water - it's the sheer force of the destruction. I think I was relatively lucky that I was very close to the ocean - that meant that only water hit us.

But if I had been 150m (500 feet) inside the coastline I would have been hit by flying debris, by 250 cars, by brick walls, by reinforcement bars. I would not have drowned, I would have been beaten to death.

The only reason I think I survived was that the walls were relatively strong to withstand the initial impact

'Surviving the aftermath'

Subsequently, literally, I just walked out in three feet (1m) of water. I had an extremely small cut.

But what is more important is not how you manage to survive a 30-second burst of a wave, it's how you manage to survive what comes afterwards, when you see men looking for their wives, when you see mothers looking for their children and screaming their names, when you see people that you have danced the night before away with, not accounted for.

That is when reality strikes.

The night before, I had been dancing. It was Christmas. We danced into the wee hours of the morning. With everyone, everyone bonded. There were Finns, there were Dutchmen and Dutchwomen, there were Brits, there were Japanese - I actually won a dance competition.

The next morning it was like it was a whole big family of 150 people. And then the next day I am seeing one of those people screaming for their loved ones.

Now, I'm drinking a lot. I do not think it helps because right now, I've got a bottle, and it's not helping me - I'm as lucid as ever, I've been lucid since then, and it really doesn't help. What do you do? What do you do?

It's like 9/11. I was on top of the continental ridge on the Rocky Mountains when 9/11 happened. I saw only one thing. What I saw, was what I heard - silence. You know what that the silence was? The silence was that all the planes had dropped out of the sky - and in America, at any given moment, if you look up into the sky, there are at least 10 planes up there. There's a drone, that nobody really notices, until the drone stops.

My nation is silent right now.

(This interview was originally broadcast on The World, a one-hour news and current affairs programme broadcast daily on US public radio stations and co-produced by the BBC World Service, Public Radio International and WGBH in Boston.)

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/south_asia/4138913.stm

2004-12-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me ! Happy Birthday to me ! Happy Birthday Happy birthday.. Haappyy Biirrthday tooo MEEeeee....

*clap clap clap*

*makes a wish*

*blows out the candles*

*cuts the cake*

hmmm.. Delicious Chocolate Cake ..

To my cousins: Thanks for all the presents
To my girlfriends(u guys know who u are): Thanks for the superb planning of my birthday suprise ! u guys gave me a wonderful birthday to remember !!

To everyone else : Thanks for all your well wishes :)

2004-12-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

Quite a number of events happened since school started .. Like i attened at Dinner and Dance organised by the SJCC (S'pore junior chefs club) and the food was good.. no actually it was better then good it was yummlicious ! the length of the buffet was jus amazing !! it stretched from one end of the ballroom to the outside of the ballroom.. can u jus imagine how long was it ? Second thing is that Miss Erica lim is back from Aust .. and the girls and i met up with her and hung round at sampang on wed and cafe cartel on thurs. Some things got out of hand though but we managed to sort it out in the end .. they haven been realli sweet to plan a nice b-day for me next week and its suppose to be kinda a suprise .. but pls girls.. no pulau ubin ok ? i wont know how to get home from there..

School has been alright so far..but school work is starting to pile up. My first service lesson at saffron was quite fun today, learnt how to make mocktails, cocktails and work the coffee machine. I think Mr Neo isn't that bad after all.. i can image Saed giving me that look now haha..

Will try to update my blog more often..gtg get some work done now. good nite !

2004-11-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

Work is finally over ! x2 Actually come to think of it i kinda miss work cuz i've made some friends during the time i worked there at the airport n i kinda miss them. Helped out at some event by OCBC at sembawang on sunday .. and guess wad i did ? gave out flyers and balloons !! and someone byt the name of (Mahtani) did not tell me i was going to do that till i got there .. hmmp.. but on the hold, it was not too bad .. saw many ugly s'poreans that day, who kept joining the queue again and again jus to get the freebies. i also saw this baby boy he was sooo ultra cute !! so fat and cubby, and he had a bit of saliva drooling down the side of his mouth ..
Went to media corp last night to watch my friend (melissa) she was doing this recording for the programme my school belle and beau .. although she didn't win, i realli felt she performed very well last night. Her chinese suddenly improved alot last night.

Anyway jus to let u all know, i'll be leaving for a short trip to thailand tonight. Be back on sunday evening . Will blog then and i'll let ur know how my trip went ya. See yas ! :)

2004-11-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

I know i haven't been updating my blog since .. god knows when .. yes.. terribly terribly sorry .. been working 24/7 .. its either i'm at work or at home catching up on my sleep .. anyway.. work has totally tire me out.. i especially hate the morning shifts cuz i gotta wake up at like 6 so that i can reach there by 6.45 to set up the kiosk and when there isn't any customer i spend my time watching barney, strawberry short cake and bob the builder cuz the opposite stall is forever playing these shows.. well.. actually work is not all that bad.. i mean i made some friends there and suprise suprise most of them working there are from tp too..
and yes of course i have denise , mahtani and gwen to ease the pain of working there .. luv ya guys !

Watched sharktales with my aunty on sat and it was such a let down .. the show wasn't that good .. i think finding nemo was a hundred times better ..
Did i mention .. i went to get my hair done last week ? yup.. and i'm still trying to get used to my new look.. its very very different from the previous one .. alot different actually.. Hope pple will like my new look !
Went for dinner yesterday night to celebrate my other aunty's b-dae.. ate soo much !!

okiez pokies.. thats about it.. nothing much has been happening as u can see.. will blog again when i have the time.. gota work tomorrow again.. so good nite ! :)

2004-10-26T13:15:00.000+08:00

My work sucks ! Started work yesterday and i practically stood there for 6 bloody hrs ! the chocs here looked soo sad too.. sitting there on the shelf waiting for someone to come into the shop and take interest in it then buy it .. realli sad.. nothing like i had imagined it to be..no lingering scent of hand-made chocolates in the shop.. jus packages and packages of factory made chocs.. Business was rather slow .. total sales amounted to only 800 plus.. Came back at 12pm.. ate my dinner and watched tv then slept..

Going to work soon .. todays timing is horrible !! 3-11pm.. o man .. this is child labour i tell u .. The labour law should state that each employee only work for 6 hrs !! 8hrs of standing today !! God bless me ! okie gota go now.. off to work .. byee ~

2004-10-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

Been utterly lazy to blog.. its worse then school days .. anwyay i've been busy these few days.. busy shopping .. bought so much .. i busted my budget !!
Thank god i found a job at the Cocoa Tree, Changi Airport.. will be starting work on Monday .. so wish me luck ! :) Found the job thanks to Mavis.. she gave me the no. to call and Denise and I went down for the interview.. And the man offered us the job on the spot ! But the working hours sux.. Gota work 6 days a week for 5 bucks per hr.. o well.. beggers can't be choosers..

Went out with Evan in the afternoon then came home.. waited for my aunty to come and then we chit chatted awhile before we went for dinner at tangling .. we had the chung cheng hot pot.. omg .. the spicy soup was sooo hot ! but delicious !! ate soo much tonight .. playing the sequal to the crimson room now.. its called The Blue Chamber !! Its even better then crimson room !! but i like the Veridian room the best ! Check it out at : http://www.fasco-csc.com/

2004-10-13T18:17:00.000+08:00

Let me update you on what has been happening..

Went for 3 job interviews with Evan on Monday. We walked into olio dome at suntac first and asked if there were any vacant positions and the manager interviewed us.. i could see that he was rather keen on employing us cuz he said he needed more people during this period.. cuz christmas is coming and that to ask more of friends who are interested to come for an interview.. then we headed down to balaclava that restaurant come pub outside suntac. The place looked really nice and they had a full bar too. The lady offered me the job straight away after she interviewed me but she told Evan she would call her if she needed help.. I rejected her offer after she told me what the working hours are like .. its from 6pm to 2am !! Gosh.. my mom wil have a fit if i came home at 3 am !! We walked over to Raffles Hotel and met Anthea there, as she was going to introduce us to her manager who has agreed to interview us for the job. The manager said that he would give us a call on thursday to let us know.. but i really hope i get the job . Met Anuty Katherine after that and we went to the Robinsons sale at expo.. Suprisingly, there were not many people .. rather quite.. Went back to her house for dinner after that.. Helped her install MSN after dinner and played with my cousin's terapin.. hes gona care for it till they grow big and then hes gona let it go at Mc richie..

Went for my class chalet on tuesday, which was yesterday..baked borwnies for them. When we reached there, we realised that onli half of the class turned up.. poor planning i tell u.. but i won't go into that.. Stewart helped to get the fire started for the bbq and the rest of is jus helped to stick the food with the satay stick.. Food was alright .. Stayed till like 10pm before i left with Geraldine and Meiyin. Took a train home and reached home at 11 . Talked to this psycho guy on msn.. he sounds realli gay.. denise told me to be careful of him .. haha .. kz.. my mom is calling my now.. gota go tata ~

2004-10-11T11:40:00.000+08:00

Vegged out at home yesterday.. its been like onli the 2nd day of my holidays but i'm getting bored already.. Went for dance in the afternoon and i'm gona be performing for the down syndrome on the 24th Oct.. i actually didn't wan to participate but when i heard its for a good cause i agreed :) thats the least i can do i guess, for them.. Went to Ikea with my parents and i didn't get anything .. cuz my dad and i were arguing over which picture i should choose to hang on my room.. as usual he didn't agree with what i chose.. he said the 'sunset' pic was too dull and dark.. and that i should get the picture of the big tulips.. so that it will brighten up my room ! i didn't like the tulips so i chose another one.. this time there were three pics in one frame and the pic depicted a beach .. the frist pic showed some sand the sec showed some rocks and the third was some sea shells.. then again.. he had something to say.. he was like "y do u wan to hang a picture of a rock on your wall?" AAARRGghh.. i was soo annoyed .. and its not jus any ordinary garden rock mind u!! In the end, i didn't end up buying anything ...
Went for dinner at pasar panjang .. the food was alright.. i think the standard has dropped.. the seafood that we called were soo pathetic..the portions were onli enough for 2 people.. Went home after dinner ..

2004-10-09T11:33:00.000+08:00

Haleluuyaa!! Its the offical start of my holidays ! Can't realli say i'm happy cuz i know that i screwed up the exams.. sigh .. especially accounts .. i prepared for it but i didn't have time to complete .. not that i didn't how to do but i jus didn't have enough time !! if i couldnt do the paper then its nothing that anyone can do abt it.. but i could do !! argh.. soooo fustrating !! i wished someone could say something else then 'don worry.. u'll pass or don worry the sub paper is in two weeks time' For everyday after the exam has ended .. i see smiles on many of my friends faces as they walk out of the exam room and i jus feel like crying cuz i guess i'm like the onli person who screwed up the paper.. sometimes i jus think maybe i'm not the 'studying' type of person.. maybe i should jus quit school now and work or something ..
I jus pray that i'll pass all my papers.. * cross my fingers*
Sophie says shes gona pray for me .. Thats realli sweet .. :)

Went to Cini with Shopie, Evan, Charlene and Meiyin. Wen to edo sushi for dinner.. we ate so much .. haha the bill was like close to 80 bucks !! haha.. then we watched WHITE CHICKS.. it was realli funniee.. met Marilyn and Toreen in the cinema.. then as we were walking out.. we saw Candice.. she was wearing a mini skirt !! not joking ! *DENISE u should have seen her yesterday ! haha her skirt was soo short!* went back with Sophie.. okiez.. tats all for now.. Happy Holidays Peeps ! :)

2004-10-05T17:14:00.000+08:00

Just finished my second paper today.. Screwed up the first .. it was soo difficult !!
Feel like making sausagues out of that Mr Chung.. this yr's paper was sooo much tougher then last yrs ! and i didn't finish my paper in time .. sigh.. guess i'll be sitting for my sub paper .. AR was alright today.. Studying for OB now..Jus pray hard that the paper will be easy tomorrow.. :)
Jus 3 more days of torture..

Will blog again after my exams ... cyaz~

2004-09-29T18:12:00.000+08:00

I should be studying now actually.. but i've been really fastrated with accts and my slow progress.. i onli did 2 chaps yesterday !! Can u believe it ? onli 2 chaps !! i myself couldn't believe it .. ARGGGHHHH... FUSTRATING IS THE WORD !!! pls pls pls .. someone pls save me from all these !! I think i'm falling into depression.. my mood swings are uncontrollable.. i feel like squeezing someone's neck out !!! and i'm not a sadist.. SAED !

I can hear the clock .. *Tick tock Tick tock ..* the skys turning dark now.. or am i just having hallucinations ..

2004-09-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

The two movies i watched in school yesterday was alright .. its was 50 first dates and the other was love actually.. i watched the 50 first dates already so it was a wee bit boring .. but luckily i had melissa chew and aaron to talk to.. but hugh grant looked soo cute and the other guy in the movie too was jus gorgeous in love actually..melissa was soo funny yesterday, she was jus entertaining us the whole night, with her silly singing..haha..Shared a cab home with melissa and got home at 11 ..

Didn't go for dance today.. but luckily i didnt go cuz ryan(my dance teacher) wasn't there ! haha.. they called him at about 9 plus and he was still in bed ! Oh hoho.. Cuz charlene didn't turn up too so SHE thought that we had known that ryan wasn't coming and then arrange not to come, without telling her ! PLEEEAAASSEE.. y would i wan to waste my time doing tat ? Ur not worth my effort .. Trust me ! But.. as 'nice' as i always am .. i called her to re-assure her that i didn't know that ryan wasn't coming and i didn't make any pre-arrangements with charlene ! *i can jus totally see denise's eye balls rolling now* haha .. *den.. i'm trying .. but its not easy* okie pokie.. going to do abit of studying now.. cyaz :)

2004-09-24T15:41:00.000+08:00

Yups there are a few missing entries.. cuz i've been getting lazier and lazier to blog.. and i don think i'll be blogging as often in these few weeks to come cuz my exams are here.. and i'll be home the whole day mugging.. or rather.. trying to mug.. so i don think there will be anything exciting going on..

Last monday was culinary science award ceremony, and i won an award ! hehe.. for passion and commitment. Initially, i thought that i was not goin to get any award so i didn't like wear nicely to school and when they called my name out i was jus cursing at myself for not wearing something better ! i looked like i jus came back from the market that day, my shirt was crumpled and my hair was in a mess .. and we were all suppose to pose for a pic when we received our cert ! how i wished i could jus disappear at that moment !

School has been ok.. i'm at the com lab now actually, jus ended my classes and i'm waitin for MISS MELISSA CHEW JING SI to finish her bloody bese .. which she is taking soo long to complete ! haha.. we're gona stay back in school to watch some movie organised by the interest group ! and it was my mom who urged me to go ! yes .. it was my mom .. can u believe it ! my exams are jus round e corner and there she is, forcing me to go for a movie .. she said in the car today "o pls..its not as if , you will do work if you go home.." hahaha.. okiez think melissa is abt done with the essay .. gtg now.. ciao ~

2004-09-18T15:05:00.000+08:00

Changed the song on my blog today.. how is it ? i feel that this song is very soulful.. :)

School was alright yesterday.. the AR interview went ok for me.. though i think i asked Mr Yong to repeat what he was saying one too many times.. he looked alittle annoyed.. haha.. But he said that the project that my group did was quite good.. hehe.. cross my fingers that we get a B at least. Shared the moon cake i brought to school with Charlene and Meiyin in AR lecture .. haha .. jus imagine eating moon cake during lecture !! o god.. it was fun.. :) Lecture ended early .. was walking out of business school when i met Pei Ying .. soo lucky me.. hehe cuz she gave me a lift home.. she drove to school yesterday.. A very good driver i must say ! :P
Came home to do my culinary portfolio .. argh.. its horrible !!
And i'm still doing it now.. okie gtg do my portfolio.. cya ~ *waves*

2004-09-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

Been really busy lately to blog.. but yup.. here i am and i changed my blog shin too ! i thought the little girl in the pic is sooo cute hahaa. My brother left for UK on sunday. Cke, cara, my parents and i sent him off.. Cke and my mom teared alittle .. didn't really feel sad or anything maybe because reality hasn't set in yet ? but yeah .. i do miss my brother ok .. i'm not heartless or anything !! haha..

Went to school today for Saffron. It was alright..But i just felt that some of my class mates were not very sensitive.. as in one of them actually told me "can u pls speed up ?" like helloo.. can't u see what i'm trying to do ? instead of sitting there and telling people what to do.. y don't u come and help ? ARGH.. Had to seperate ourselves into 4 gps today during the after service briefing for some group project next week.. and as usual i was left with the last group again.. that group of rejects.. sigh.. not that the pple in the group are not nice .. they are but.. its like they are the left overs, after the rest have chosen who they want to have in their groups. I just felt so unwanted .. like an abandoned child.. on my wat out of Saffron i was jus wondering to myself .. am i tat horrible or am i that hated by everyone that no one wants to partner me in any group projects ? I have also asked myself if i have honestly treated them well and i can say that.. yes i have ! i have tried very hard to fit in.. but nothing seems to work.. Sigh.. but what can i do ?
Had a gp meeting after Saffron today, lasted awhile ..then took a cab home .. Saw Hannah ourside .. they were going to take a cab to parkway and my mom was also going that dirstion as she wanted to buy some groceries.. so we gave them a lift.. Hannah was soo naughty .. but soo very cute.. maybe i'm in the wrong line.. i should have taken a diploma in early childhood rather then hospitality .. meybe that is my real calling .. hmm... Went to cold storage with my mom and came home after tat .. Watched s'pore idol jus now .. Sylvester sim is damm funniee. i think he rounded up all is ah beng and ah lian friends together to vote for him .. tats y he won .. ahahah .. kz going to bed now.. nitezz :)

2004-09-11T12:12:00.000+08:00

Many people has been asking me abt the last entry i made .. and guess i owe u all an explaination. First of all, thx for your concern, i'm fine :) i'm laughing and eating well. Secondly, i have actually written an entry on that but i decided not to post it cuz it was really personal and ugly.. haha so i don't think any of you would be interested to read some stupid dumb entry about it and it will probably bore you to death and it might also jus cure your insomnia... haha so ya.. once again ..i'm alright :P . The earth still rotates and the sun still shines so life still moves on no matter what happens ..

Went for dance in the morning then went for project work.. stayed till 4.30 before i took a bus home.. I HATE APplied REsearch !! Like i'm going to analyse data and come up with research ojectives in future.. hmph.. and that bloody group member just makes the project a whole lot more painful .. haha. Going to my mom's friend's hs for dinner tonight.. seriously have no intention of going.. but i nkow my mom wont be happy if i stayed home.. but i went to the dinner anyway, gosh .. the laksa they made was awesome !! the food there was to die for.. Watched finding nemo here cuz there wasn't much to do and i didn't wan to play with all the kiddies that were there.. Left early from the dinner and was suppose to sit down to do some work when cke called my bro to ask us out for cheese cake..so went went to the cheese cake shop at siglap .. the interior design was really nice.. very bali feeling.. Anyhow, my brother will be leaving for UK tomorrow night.. and his flight is at 3am ? and i think i'm going to send him off.. Bon Voyage!~

2004-09-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

I'M TIRED..I'M IN PAIN AND NO ONE SEEMS TO KNOW.. I FEEL STRESSED .. I FEEL AGITATED BUT NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE.. I FEEL SO ALONE IN THIS WORLD.. SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT AM I LIVING FOR ? WHAT DO I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TOO ? MY EYES ARE DRY OF TEARS AND MY FEELINGS ARE NUMBED .. I'M JUST SLOWLY FADING AWAY .........

2004-09-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

7-09-04

Hannah woke me up this morning..haha..she knocked on my door. Shes soo cute.. she wore this blouse that showed off her little fat tummy ..haha.. Went to school for AR meeting today, AR is driving me insane ! didn''t do anything at the meeting cuz we were all trying to figure out what to do ! Had lunch at Saffron .. the chicken served to us was definately not fine dining ! the portion was so huge ! and the chicken was jus too dry .. entree wasn't good and the intermezzo was soo pathetic.. it was just 3 ball like shaped honey dew. Couldnt taste the shorbet at all ! haha..Before lect, one of my classmates commented that the blouse i was wearing today looked like the mooncake box picture ! hmph ! Had lect till 6 then met Melissa Chew Jing Si cuz we were going out for dinner.. but we went back to her house first cuz she wanted to change her clothes..had a tour around her hs and found tat her sister's room is nicer then hers haha .. Went to simply thai for dinner at siglap and we ate pad thai ! e noodles were soo sweet..stayed there for 2hrs to chit chat. Wanted to go Galare for waffles after dinner but there was jus too many people so we ended up at starbucks .. mel ordered this chocolate cake but it looked sad.. haha the cake was bleeding with chocolate.. and it looked stale! like some experiment gone wrong .. hahaha.. so mel went to change for a cheese cake and she told the waiter to check the cake mix cuz it might have expired already ! hahaha.. Mel needed to shit so she hailed a cab home frist.. then i took a taxi home too. Going to bath now byez~

2004-09-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

6-09-04

Had marketing presentation today..Felt that my groups proposal wasn't very good.. the other groups had actually worked out the astimated profit vs expense and showed the numbers of the estimated sales! and my group didn't have any of that.. o well.. but its over .. so i jus pray hard that we get a B at least .. Satyed back for project meeting till 7 then decided to go for the interview for sub-comm for dance club .. there was like over 15 people who went for the interview and i think everyone got in .. it was like waddd ?!? if they wanted to recruit everyone then there wasn't a need for an interview in the first place ! The qns asked during the interview were quite dumb .. i mean the interviewer (Toby, Charlene's friend) asked me this qn " if u have a dance commitment outside and the dance club needs u to help out with one of the activity .. which would u choose? " so what kind of answer did he expect from me ? gosh .. haha, so i told him that with proper time management .. i would be able to handle all the activities. Took a cab home after that and reached home by 9 .. really tired, going to bed early .. NITE !
*Saed.. stop being an idiot!*

2004-09-04T12:58:00.000+08:00

4-09-04

Went for dance class in the morning .. the teacher is totally freaky !! He taught us this feet movement and we were suppose to do that movement and sway to the music at the same time .. so i was just following the music and practicing the routine then he walked towards me and at first he was like 2 feet away from me and he started dancing to the music then he took another step closer and continued to dance and he moved closer and closer and by that time his face would have been totally in my face already if i hadn't looked down on the floor. And because i had no idea what he wanted to do, i just continued dancing to the music then suddenly he took my right hand and slide his other hand up my back jus below my arm (ballroom dancing position)and started dancing with me .. GOD ! i was soo shocked i didn't know what to do .. then the girls behind me started to giggle and i couldn't control so i burst out laughing too and stopped moving .. then he moved away. I was soo humiliated !
Went for group meeting till 1am then took a cab home, my mom made nasi lemak and called my reletives over for lunch.. the nasi lemak was finger licking good !! then i took a nap and did some work. Met my mom's friend's family for dinner at turf city for seafood. They ordered sooo much and yup i ate soo much too.. haha .. the crab was soo big and had lots of flesh and it was soo delicious !! *drools* hahah went to drink teh ta reh at joo chiat after that and got home at 12... Yawnz.. Gd Nitte ..

2004-09-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

3-09-04

Dad fetched me to school today, and had lessons till six. The last lecture was quite fun cuz my we were taught dinning ettiquette. The lecturer was this old women from australia and shes married to a chinese so i think she has been living here for quite a while now. Went to meet CKE at tampinese junction as she had some fitting of clothes to do there. Her friend Kara came too. They were both dressed sooo nicely, i felt like some philipino maid standing behind them. haha .. we picked my brother up and had dinner at the club . After that we went back to CKE's house to pick her dad and her sis up then we dropped Kara at zouk and then wen to a nearby hawker centre cuz we all jus felt like having desserts. Thanks to my brilliant brother for introducing that hawker centre cuz there wasn't a single dessert stall in sight! So we drove to Lao Pa Sut and we had satay and ice ka-chang.. Oooo the ice ka-chang was goooddd !!! they added a scoop of ice cream on top too.. Reached home at 12 .. Nite

2004-09-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

2-08-04

Saffron went well today.. had abit of fun cuz the restaurant was closed for VIPS so we prepared something different for them.
Went for project meeting after Saffron, and it was jus very bad.. a member of my group has a super big attitude problem that she can't control .. bad enough shes soo domineering and has now even taken over the post of group leader when that was my given post..not that i want to be the leader or what but she jus assumes that everyones fine with her taking over.. frankly, i'm cool about it.. i even went to the extend of "sliently" giving up the post to her and taking a back seat and thats fine with me, but i jus hate the fact that everytime i do something that displeases her .. she gives that kind of "ok .. if ur soo smart then prove it" attitude then expect me to be so scared and shut up .. i know she hates people to contradict her and to oppose her, she thinks that wadever she does is the best and doesn't need correction. Take for example, the previous day when we were editing the final project and her power point slides were abit messy with gramatical errors here and there and i was supposed to edit it and when i did edit her english i could see that she wasn't happy abt it .. and i had to humour her by saying its alright everyonhe makes mistakes.. i mean i don understand y must i humour her when shes angry ?? no one humours me when i'm angry .. and y must i swollow whatever is thrown into my face .. WHY WHY WHY ?????
i'm sick of having to accomodate to your likes and dislikes .. and this is not the first time that you've treated me this way ! i know you think i'm dense and brainless .. cuz u called me up that day to ask if it was really me and evan who did the project or was it jus evan who did it cuz the final piece was very well written !!! can u imagine how shocked i was when u asked my that ? ur doubting my ability !! WHEN I DON'T SPEAK UP DOESN'T MEAN I DON HAVE AN OPINION AND I'M OK WITH EVERYTHING YOU SAY ! I'M JUST TRYING TO BE NICE ! but why must u treat me this way ? y must u be so mean to me ? i thought u were my friend , i thought we shared something special ? i thought we had a connection ? Am i not your friend ? or was it just my wishful thinking right from the start......

2004-09-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

1-08-04

Hmm.. right now i'm eating my yogurt and talking to my friend on the phone.. the yohurts really really gooodd... theres like pieces of strawberries inside.. the texture is so smooth and it tastes super creamy.. Mmmmm.. delicious !
Finally .. the projects are almost finished .. now i can rest.. school went smoothly today.. Apel class (some what like CME) really touched me today, cuz we had to share what we thought abt apel 2 .. and a few of my friends broke down, while sharing some of thier family problems..and i guess it made me realise that everyone has their own problems and troubles, even though they may look strong on the outside but u never know what kind of pain and agony they are going through.
Just spoke to denise over msn and she told me that melissa tan is one of the contestents of the programme "my school's belle" and will be on tv next wed.. i'm so excited for her !! Frankly speaking i haven't sopken to mel for quite a while now.. especially since she started school .. but i hope shes doing well. People pls vote for her ok ? you can do that over sms when the show is being aired on tv next wed, on chnl 8 at 8pm. :) Going to sleep now . Tata~
Changed my blog's song .. everyday i love u by boyzone .. enjoy ! :)

2004-09-01T17:19:00.000+08:00

31-08-04

My brother fetched my to school today, this driving is getting more and more stable.. School ended at 6 and i stayed back for project till 7.30 before my parents picked me up. Had dinner with my relatives.. god i pigged out !! My dieting plan is failing terribly .. haha .. Supposed to meet CKE after dinner in town for drinks with my brother but i didn't follow cuz i was jus too tired.. so i went home after dinner.. going to bed. Zzzz

2004-08-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

30-04-08

Talking to my long lost friend now on msn .. haha shes non other then Miss Lim Beng Hui .. haha really happy that i finally spoken to her .. although its jus over msn but its really been ages since i've last spoke to her.. *Beng .. we have lots and lots of catching up to do ya* Hope to meet u soon !!
School was abit slow today especially during accounts .. the teacher was jus wasting everyone's time.. she took like 15 mins to go through the first question.. and as usual we ended late. Saw Jane today.. she looks fine .. thank god.. hmm...guess the highlight of the whole day was the last lect .. i think the best lect i've every been too !! My teachers got like 2 bartenders from china jump to come and lecture us on bar service and they turned the lect hall into a club !! haha .. they played like some funky techno music and they took turns to show off their bar tendering skills.. they juggled bottles and did some bottle tricks like half spin, double spin etc.. and made cocktails.. man it was good !! thw whole LT was jus mad !! everyone was cheering and clapping ... hahaha .. i wouldn't mind going to culinary lect every week if it was this fun ! :) Took a bus home with Evan and watched tv and blogged .. Goin to bed soon .. Ywanz ! NITEZ..

2004-08-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

29-08-04

Listening to the song on my blog now.. really like it.. it feels so so christmassi..like i'm walking down broadway on a winter's night.. hahaa... Frank Sinatra is jus so amazing !
Finished up my hw this morning and spoke to charlene and meiyin over msn .. feel so bad cuz we keep teasing meiyin abt her triangle love relationship haha .. o well.. shes enjoying all the attention anyway.. went for tap today.. came home and rested awhile and tried to do some acct but jus can't seem to understand anything, i'm soo screwed. Went to taka with my dad and stef to meet my mom, bro and cousins.. we had Xiao Long Bao .. yes the juicy, mouth watering xiao long bao .. gosh .. we ate sooo much .. we had 12 xiao long bao, 4 bowls of la mian, fried rice, 2 plates of pork wrapped in a bun, fish, vege and not forgetting 3 plates of gao li dao sa .. *burp* hehe.. My brother drove us home .. yup hes got his driving license ready.. Good nite peeps !

THE WAY YOU LOOK TONIGHT
Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonight.

Mm, Mm, Mm, Mm,
Just the way you look to-night.

-Frank Sinatra

2004-08-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

28-08-04

Had dance in the morning.. the teacher was in a horrible mood .. and i was feeling bored.. he was teaching technique, technique and more technique. After class, i headed down to marine parade for dental. Waited like half an hour before i could see the dentist.. but the dentist was a really nice women .. very gentle .. unlike my othordontist. Went home for lunch and took a nap. Got up and did abit of work and watched the Syncronised swimming competiton.. Russia was really strong.. but i like USA's cheorography.. their theme was Lord of the rings .. so that was the music they played too.
Went to my cousin's house for bbq cuz its her b-day today .. Ate soo much .. Came home and watched tv and blogging right now.. Nitezzz
*Happy 13th b-day stef*

2004-08-27T12:57:00.000+08:00

27-08-04

It was my school's CCN day today its some sort of a funfair to raise funds for needy students. Sadly its not as good as last years ccn day .. not as crowded and exciting .. fewer stalls and most of the stalls were selling fondue .. tried the marshmellow fondue .. it was super sweet, bet my sugar level shot up really high . Had lunch at Saffron, felt that the food was too overwelming .. abit too much for fine-dining i felt. The dessert was the best ! *Yummy*
Had to go for lect and tutorials even though it was ccn day.. Zhang Wei can really put me to sleep .. hmm.. maybe i should get her number and if ever i get insomnia i can give her a call and act like i'm really blur about applied research and get her to explain to me. I bet it would cure my insomnia straight away!! haha .. okok i know i'm being mean ..
Had dinner at Newton Circus with my parents.. it had been like donkey years since i stepped into Newton. The food was really good and value for money .. i ordered sting ray for one person and it came as two whole pieces and it costs only 8 bucks ! the usual price of a sting ray is usually 10+ for a small piece. Came home to watch the reality tv show "My Big Fat Obnoxious Fiance " .. luv that show .. haha .. Discussed project work over the phone with Evan and i'm going to bed now.

*Erica.. Hope ur feeling better .. jus wan to let u know that i'll be here if you need me ya ! Put the past behind u and walk on.. * :)

2004-08-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

26-08-04

Saffron was alright today.. didn't get that much scolding, the chief was quite nice to me today.. she allowed me to pick the dish that i wanted to do and even helped me to cut the misen-place. But she was quite mean to one of my friend. What happened was that she forgot to bring her cap, which is part of our attire so she told my friend to go back home to get her cap.. and mind u she stays in yishun !! it will take her about 2 hrs to and fro.. thank goodness one of the girls had her friend who lives nearby to come down to school to pass my friend the cap. Lucky for me, she didn't make me go home to take my name tag cuz i forgot to bring it to school today. Stayed back for project till like 4 plus then we felt hungry so charlene, meiyin and me when down to tm to eat steamboat .. haha was so full after that !
Came home and watched the american idol on tv, i think jesse is the best out of the whole lot of them .. that ah beng guy didn't deserve to win .. that olinda girl/guy or wadever was not too bad .. haha. Ate dinner after that, my mom bought so much of food today at the market.. feeling soo full now. Going to bed soon .. (i'm such a pig) Seriously speaking i'm growing fatter and fatter each day ever since i cut down on my dance. haha Nite :)

2004-08-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

School was alright today.. Couldn't understand what my accounts tutor was talking about.. her voice is not clear its as if shes talking to herself and her dressing is so 80s .. can't help staring at her blouse with lots of big flowery prints and very high shoulder pads.. haha .. o man .. u should have seen what she wore on the first day of school !! she was wearing this long sun dress and the design of the sleeves were very weird !! its the first time i've seen such a dress with those kind of sleeves, the sleeves had this kind of checkered pettern on it ! and in between them there were box like holes !! hahah ..
Stayed back for project meeting today.. after that my dad picked me up and gave a lift to Evan too .. Watched tv and did my project.. going to bed soon .. Yawnz

2004-08-21T12:45:00.000+08:00

21-08-04

Took a cab to dance class in school today, the taxi driver cheated my of 1 buck ! cuz its peak period from 7.30-9.30 so i had to pay an dollar xtra. So when we reached school the meter was at 9.20 and he pressed it and it jumped to 10.20 but he had earlier on pressed the meter during the journey already to make it jump to an extra dollar more .. that means he pressed it twice !! As i was late i didn't want to argue with him but i seriously hope that all his teeth falls out !! I'm not being petty or wad but its about morals !
There were soo many people at the dance class today .. Gosh.. i felt so clastrophobic .. the class was a wee bit boring cuz he was teching the technique of hiphop and thats not what i came for .. i wanted to learn routine not technique !! o well.. but i guess its better to built up my foundation first. Stayed on for awhile to watch the advance class.. e advance class was so much more interesting ! they did very little of floor exercise and more routine Hmph..
On my way home i met my ex karate teacher .. i was like "o shit .. he's gona ask me to come back for lessons" but cuz i'm taking dance and all so its not very good to take karate at the same time so i quit and everytime i see him he always ask when am i coming back !! haha .. Took a short nap and did a bit of work then i went for dinner with my parents we had coca steamboat at taka.. it was so ex as we took alacarte ! And food was mediocra.. for that kind of price i think taking the buffet would have been a better choice ! the buffet is 30 bucks per person but u can eat as much as you want ..
Got home at about 12 .. Good nites

2004-08-20T12:24:00.000+08:00

20-08-04

My friend (Jane) her mother passed away this morning.. really really sad for her. This morning during tutorial, Evan came in and told me the news .. could tell that she was holding back her tears when she broke the news to me .. i too felt like crying at that instant .. Jane has always been such a chirpy and happy-go-lucky girl .. but i never knew that behind that smile of hers she was so very worried for her mother cuz from what i know is that her mom's health hasn't been that good. Sigh.. it just suddenly struck me too that life is such a vulnerable and fragile thing.. one minute you could be talking to a person and the next min he could be gone forever..
I dono y but during break, i just had a sudden urge to call my family just to know if they are alright but i decided to call Denise instead .. cuz i haven't spoken to her for awhile and lately i know that shes been really stressed out with her projects and stuff.. Left an sms for Jane but she didn't reply.. really hope that shes ok..
Didn't feel like going for the last lecture so Evan, Sophie and me shared a cab home cuz it was raining heavily.. had dinner and watched tv and blogged .. going to bed now.. nitez

2004-08-19T01:20:00.000+08:00

19-08-04

Today was a HORRIBLE day for me in school !! First i woke up late got to class late and i don't think my teacher marked my attendence, cuz i didn't hear her call my name ! When the restaurant opened ... i screwed up really bad !! cuz the fish i steamed was not fully cooked and two of the guests sent it back, to make things worse, my service teacher was at the side scolding and hurrying me to cook the fish (like i can make steamer any hotter or something so that the fish can get cooked faster) he was totally so not helpful and by hurrying me he made me even more nervous. Luckily, my culinary teacher told him off.. she said "yes she heard u .. but the fish is still not cooked so u just have to waite!" Thank god for her !! I felt soo upset and soo bad the whole day after that .. and some of my friends were just so insensitive .. one came up to me and said " u know.. i think it would suit you best to work in a japanese restaurant cuz the fish they serve there are all raw.. " Argh !! Sigh..i just hope this won't ever happen again .. i swear off cooking fish for now .
Had dinner with my parents and some of my father's client from Burma. The client brought along his daughter and shes a really really nice girl .. hmm.. are all burmese girls so nice and soft spoken ? After dinner we went to take a walk at chinatown .. she asked me what i liked and told me shes going to give me a present .. aww.. shes soo sweet . Got home late going to sleep now.. Nite !

2004-08-17T01:20:00.000+08:00

17-08-04

Got up at 8 and went to my friends house, we were going to try out the dishes that my class had choosen to do for our project week. I'm going to do the cold starter ! During the cooking, there was this girl with abit of attitude problem .. she was like almost going to murder me just because i was poking the pasta dough.. she was nearly going berserk screaming at the top of her voice.. O man.. need she have such a huge reaction ?? O well yeah i admit i was abit of an itchy fingers to touch that dough but that doesn't give her due course to scream at me like that ?!?!? i don't go around sreaming at people just because they did something wrong !! Sigh.. as u can see .. how my life is in poly .. thats a really good example for those people who wants to know what poly life is .. ok i know i might be sterotyping but trust me most of them are like that !!! and they don feel shy about it .. task task ! Hung around till like 1.30 then i took an mrt back to school with some friends.. Had lectures till like 6 and stayed back for presentation rehersal. My parents and my brother came and pick me up and we went for dinner. After dinner, we dropped over at my cousins hs cuz my mom wanted to pass something to my cousin. Before going home, my dad stopped at & eleven and i bought a Mr softy chocolate flavour.. its horrible !! the chocolate didn't taste one bit like chocolate and it melted way too fast !! I still prefer ben and jerrys when it comes to ice cream ! Did my hw till 12 and i'm going to bed now.. Nite ! :P

First Day of School

2004-08-16T10:56:00.000+08:00

16-08-04

Couldnt sleep the whole night .. tossed and turned in bed till like 4 am before i managed to get some sleep .. sigh.. guess u guys should know the reason right ? yeah .. silly me ..
First day of school was alright.. was really tired though .. especially during marketing the tutor was sooo boring.. i had to practically slap myself to stay awake.. haha..
school ended at 6 .. the last lecture was a total waste of time. As usual, she was talking to herself .. reached home at 7 and played with Max and Hannah .. Watched tv and bath and i'm off to bed now.. really shagged .. hope to have a good sleep tonight.. Good nitey! :)